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Extremely painful boredom/loneliness

sfay
sfay

On Friday I left with my church for a competition type thing and I came back yesterday on Sunday, when I got home, I felt the most painful boredom and loneliness I've ever felt, this was very different from other times I was depressed, i couldn't even function, I was on the verge of crying for like the whole time yesterday and when my cousin came over I could not even talk to her I just had a blank face and was trying not to cry in front of everyone, I barely spoke, I couldn't speak, and it wasn't even because of my social anxiety, it was because of my depression, i felt like I had the most boring and lonely and horrible life in the world. I felt very inferior and like A loser while I was on the trip, I couldn't really even talk to anyone because I was too anxious or ashamed, so seeing everyone socialize and be friends and me being lonely made me extremely sad. And when I got home it was worse, I felt like everyone had the best time ever and that I was just a loser, and that my life sucked, I still have no interest in things anymore, but it was worse yesterday, I can't even describe what I was feeling, I just know it was boredom/loneliness, but more exetreme than usual. I also was thinking about how boring my siblings lives were too(minus my brother), I was wondering if anyone felt this way,because I'm not thinking the same way I was on Friday anymore.

GreenEyes727
GreenEyes727
Maybe you should get counseling through your church. You sound quite intelligent and introspective. I was in a bad way myself yesterday. Two of my friends were on dates all day and my brother went to the beach. I was too tired to do anything. My best friend finally wrote to me but was drunk and fell asleep. Thank God for my new kitten. I wish I could post his picture. He is part Siamese. Very beautiful. So you have to take the bull by the horns and beat this social anxiety. My niece went for a few years without talking to anyone but her friends. She spent all of her time in her room. We had been so close. My brother put her in online counseling. It worked wonders. She's even working. I'm proud of her. You can do it too!
eli_mom
eli_mom
Hi- You can try to talk to any spiritual leader in your church, like your youth pastor. I’m so sorry you feel this way. Having a trusted friend that you can talk to would be helpful as well.

I hope you feel better soon. Praying for you.
wolvessonata
wolvessonata
Your church has the proper resources to help you. They're more than just a house of whorship. You have to advocate for yourself and ask for help. No one can do it for you. Don't let fear stop you.
sfay
sfay
I feel talking to one of my friends would ruin our friendship so I don’t want to do that, I plan on getting a job and using my money to join online therapy..
GreenEyes727
GreenEyes727
Some places have a sliding scale fee so they go by your income as to what to charge you. It is a good idea to get a job. I think I was 15 when I started working in a factory. I met some great people, even my first boyfriend. The best way to find a job is through www.indeed.com. Good luck to you!
RJW
RJW
Thank you for sharing. There are different levels of Depression, and some are actually painful. You have nothing to be ashamed of, and should always try to remember that. No one who endures is a loser. Depression is a extremely heavy weight to carry, that makes it very difficult to just get out of bed. Carrying that weight, and doing anything is a victory. Definitely important to seek out help. Ask questions about dealing with Depression with someone in your Church, if you feel they understand, then open up to them. Either they can help or get you helped. Never shame in getting help. Boring can be also peaceful, and many crave peaceful with chaotic lives. You are in my prayers. Thank you. God Bless.
Bluebird20
Bluebird20
stay, thanks for sharing also, I can relate to some of what your saying. You sound determined to help yourself that is a good thing. I am depressed, lonely and bored a lot at times. I was determined to work like you and it makes you feel a lot better about yourself. Also, it helps with all the feelings your having. There are sliding scale counselling centers like green eyes said and many religious organizations as well.
maria718
maria718
Hi I totally understand. I was like that yesterday, lonliness and boredom got the best of me, I thought I was going to crack up and was fighting back the tears. I go to counseling, but she's on vacation next week so I will try my very best to stay strong, be mindful, and try to think positive. It's not easy. But the alternative is going off the deep end. Counseling helps me, you should try to get some help too. I'm going to see my counselor one more time before she goes away for 2 weeks, so I have to be strong. You too--be strong!!
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