Have you tried AA or counseling?

I haven't been in counseling in a very long time. I just got insurance through work, so perhaps I will start counseling again.

My OCD has really been going off the deep end, and I have been drinking as a way escape which in itself is dangerous. My panic disorder literally went away until I started drinking again, so obviously I need to find a way to break this cycle. I was fine with drinking for about 6 months, but then all of a sudden drinking has started to make me physically ill.

I feel nauseous and am shaking and I need to be at work in an hour. This has got to stop.

Hi Kuno,

Although I've never been much of a drinker, I do have several other vices that I cannot control. So I do understand your situation.
I wish had the perfect answer for you, but I don't.
Please seek help if you feel you need it.
It does NOT sound stupid to set a goal for yourself to not drink for two weeks.
I wish you all the luck and strength in the world to achieve that goal Good Luck to you :-)

Maybe its some medication your on that makes drinking so much worse for you. You say as little as one drink will make you drunk and your having blackouts and vomiting. I know it will be hard for you, but I think staying away from drinking all together would be best. I'm sorry that you are feeling so bad for doing this to your husband. You sound like you are scared yourself about your drinking. You can stop drinking, I know you can. you care so much about your husband, you have a big heart. Reach out and get the help you need. you are worth it.

dunno wot to say but hugs to u. xx

You should seek some help from a doctor or AA. Do you take meds? They can cause severe interactions with drinking sometimes. When I took prozac, 2 or 3 drinks made me really drunk, and I used to be able to drink all night and not get drunk. The fact that you are very sensitive to alcohol now could mean your body is having a hard time processing it. Check with your doc if you can. Be careful when detoxing though, alcohol withdrawal can be terrible and can make you very sick. If you think you need to go to the doc and have it medically monitored.
Good luck to you. And don't give up if you falter during the 2 weeks, just try again. I hope you can find the help and comfort you need.

We all have our weaknesses; the trick is to manage them so they don't cause us trouble.

Sometimes this means giving something up completely, other times we can manage them just fine by cutting back.

My guess is that you may need to give up drinking completely, but I only know what you have posted.

Alcohol having such an effect on you .. perhaps the alcoholism DS group can offer you some good advice:

http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Alcoholism/support-group

If you must obsess over something, for the time being, find something that does not harm you. Maybe distract with a certain kind of movie or music....Find something else.

I've been searching, lately, too. But, I know that's not the answer. I have been working with my therapist about this.

I can't add much to what others have already mentioned, except to add my sympathies...it's so hard when addictions go out of control.

I've seen people just hit a certain point where their bodies seem to almost start rejecting alcohol. Getting very sick after just a few drinks, blacking out after just a few drinks, hangovers after just a few drinks.

So it sounds similar, I guess, to me at least. Perhaps quitting altogether would be the healthiest thing for you, although I know that's scary as hell.

Hugs to you, and I hope these 2 weeks help you discover what a good next step would be.

Ended up going home from work after only 2 and a half hours. Once again alcohol has caused me to miss work, which is total bullshit.

Summer- That is just it. I used to have a high tolerance to alchohol and it seems like I just stopped having a tollerance overnight. I do have stomach problems and am on numerous medications, so it is just time for me to stop drinking.

I am REALLY feeling sick and anxious right now. I am also afraid that I just triggered my panic disorder again. That is the scariest thing for me right now.

Another big fear of mine is that I will go through withdrawal if I just stop drinking. All of this is just scaring me right now.

I'm sorry you are going through this right now. As hard as it is, it seems like it would be best for you if you could just quit alcohol all together. I know this is easier said than done. Maybe you could see your doc and have him help you if he can. Also, maybe counseling would help. I wish you the best..I know it's a struggle. Hugs x

Alcohol is a wicked drug, one of the most dangerous in fact - regardless of the amount used. It's a depressant and like all other drugs it interacts with whatever medications you may be taking.

It's interesting that you describe all manor of horrible things that have happened because of using this drug - yet you still would even consider touching it again. That says a lot right there.

I hope when the 2 weeks is up you will take a look at how much better your life is when not using alcohol and make the best choice for yourself. Good Luck.

I think that drinking in order to escape any troubling part of ourselves is often a prelude and a sign of potential addiction or abuse.Or, it might be a sign that there is a *lot* of restless,relentless and very unhealed pain deep within us.I was in what sounds like a somewhat similar cycle: I used to drink to escape my major depresion and severe anxiety disorder---which, eventually only made them both much,much worse.(To this day I can't entirely understanding why I didn't force myself to quit drinking altogether, when things first became ominous.) I am certainly NOT implying that you are an addict yourself; it just seems to me that,right now, your body is rebelling agains the toxic alcohol,and thus,against you--against your clarity and peace of soul and mind, by adding more suffering and painful uncertainity to your life.You mention that you drink,in part, to escape your OCD; I wonder,do you feel the benefits of drinking seem to outweigh the lows of it? I am just unsure what the motivations and positives are to you to continue to drink (after a 2 week break) when stopping altogether might truly be the healthiest ideal- at least for now. Perhaps by going back to counseling you could find alternative ways of coping w/ the maze of panic/anxiety and OCD--methods which would not be,potentially, equally and even more undermining to you, like drinking can become....And surely, even if you are not a potential addict at all, your drinking is causing you--it sounds like--to suffer more than you would otherwise,and why undergo more pain needlessly?I agree that seeing a insightful counselor at this point--an ally-- could be quite good for you,and healing ...something alcohol can never be...Best wishes to you.

Go to the alcoholism like someone else mentioned and post what you posted here (copy and paste) or do a new post with the same topic. See the responses that come in and read all you can in there. I am on all kinds of meds also, some for depression, and alcohol should not be drunk while taking them but I did anyway. When I stopped drinking my depression subsided. I did it going to AA and hitting a bottom where alcohol took over my life like it sounds like it is doing to you. Just check out the alcoholism forum and maybe check out an AA mtg. You can go and not say a word. Good luck to you.