You have to keep fighting. I know the pain and how tempting it is to just end it all for good. But there are good things that can happen in your life. You can't give up on your one chance at life. As hard as it can be sometimes,life is a blessing. Even though I sometimes fantasize about death, I know I'm very lucky to be alive. I try finding ways to help. Working out is a good outlet for me. I recently joined some meet up groups in my area and hope it can help to find some friends. I don't know if it will work but Im going to try. That's all we can do..keep trying.

Meet up groups are a great idea. My husband started one and in a short amount of time he had over 100 members.

I get really anxious around people that I don't know

i know how hard it is. i've found talking about it really helps. and you really just need someone to listen. don't ask them to fix it but to justness listen to you and understand what is going on. you have worth. and i believe you will get through this. message me if you ever want to talk.

I'm not good at talking that much

Just start with what you can talk about, a little bit at a time. Take it as slowly as you need to take it

Please, keep fighting. We're here to listen to you. *hugs*

Fighting is getting very hard

Think about everything you're giving up when you end it. Think of the people you will hurt by doing that. It doesn't matter who you are, everyone has someone that cares, that includes you.

Try finding something or someone out there to express yourself. For example, cooking for me is a great outlet. It's something good that distracts from my terrible times. There is plenty of other things too, like exercising, finding a hobby, things like that.

Please, keep fighting for a better tomorrow, cause eventually, things will get better.

Hope this helps,

Chris

I’m so sorry to hear about your struggles, girl. I wish I could give you a hug. I know it’s not easy to go through anxiety. Putting an end to your life will never solve your problems. It will always result in even greater hurt. Are you seeing a therapist? I’d suggest that you consider talking to a caring professional. Have you tried contacting the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline? They operate toll-free, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Just call 1-800-273-TALK (8255). It might be worth giving them a call. I just said a prayer for you, and I hope that God will surround you with His comfort and provide the strength and help you need at this time. Remember that you deserve to feel better and you don’t need to carry your burdens alone. We all care about you and are here to support you. Hugs!

I sometimes wish I could be the girl I was before the years of damage from all the poison. You can't dwell on the past or the should of's!
I have no way of changing then, now is what matters.
Each day I remind myself it is a new start! I can be whatever I want to be and I have the choice to be around the people I want to be around.

Don't give up! and please don't crash your car. I have felt that way before like giving up and calling it quits. I am on meds that help to control the symptoms of my depression better now and i don't feel that way anymore. I go to therapy and I am making progress. there is hope and much more to life than what you are experiencing right now. I understand that you don't feel well and that things are not going well for you right now but they can change if you stay alive and work at them and take one step at a time.

Things are just getting really hard