And here I thought no one went through what I went through. I have been through the same thing; same thoughts, same situation, and same feelings. It got so bad that I actually tried to take my life. The first time I tried, I didn't learn but when I ended up in the e.r. for the second time, it changed everything. I used to be a real rude; unkind person but that experience changed me. Right now, you feel that you will always be this way because the pain is so unbearable but I promise you that you won't stay this way. We are all here for a reason but, for some of us, to find our purpose in life is extremely hard because of the circumstances. But I promise you that you will find peace without dying. Yes, I am still very depressed but I am a changed person and I am changed in a way that I could make an impact on someone's life if I had the chance. You are not crazy at all. That doesn't make you a bad person and that doens't mean you don't have a right to live. Life probably seems so meanigless right now because of all the pain you are going through. But, from life experience, I can almost guarantee you that your life will start to change for the better. Never give up hope and never loose sight of your light. Death isn't going to make it any easier either. Your problems just won't go away if you die because you won't be able to rest in peace because you'll truly see how much you've hurt the ones that care about you and love you.