Please don't cut because you have an ass of a doctor. Excuse me for being so blunt but he has no business dealing with people with an attitude like that. I guess I am very blessed to have the doctor that I do and wish I could send him to all of you. I see him once a month and all the years I have been seeing him, I have only cancelled one appointment. I bring a list for him and for me and he reads everything on it, and answers all of my questions. I flat out asked him one time if he really believed me when I told him how much pain I was in, and he said, yes I always believed you. Don't settle hon, find a doctor that understands, will take the time you need,.We are not numbers and not everyone needs the same amount of time. Some of us need more. Please Please don't cut because of that so called doctor. He needs to go back to medical school and learn how to talk to his patients. If I told my doctor what he said and how he treated you, he would be appalled. Hugs GB

I know those thoughts oh so well. I have cut or hurned myself many times before. Thank goodness it's been many years since i've done it, but i definitely still have moments where i feel dangerously close to that. It doesn't take much to send a depressed person over the edge when we are all standing so closely on the precipice. I agree, u need a good doc that really listens and is willing to find solutions. I think u would reaaaaaally benefit from counseling. U have to find the right match there too I've just started counseling and i was a huge skeptic, but im finding it more beneficial than i ever imagined. U can be totallu open and they will help u find tools to deal w/ some of your feelings

i feel so very proud 4 u that u have managed 2 reach out without additional harm 2 yourself . every moment u r safe is a testament 2 your incredible strength . the fact that u r reaching out here & have the courage 2 seek additional counselling is a great feat . perhaps one day u will see your strengths too . it would mean so very much 4 u 2 stop blaming yourself 4 being vulnerable . if i had the ability 2 ask 4 professional advice again i would communicate what happened with my last therapist/dr. & how it just pushed me into further desperation . my own dr . of over 10 years used 2 say " frying pan or fire " 2 me all the time as if i should just settle 4 mediocrity instead of seeking the help i so deserved . i m sick over the fact that i stayed without going elsewhere . please continue reaching out . u r admired & have my heartfelt support .

I hate the way doctors interrupt. I have an appointment on Wednesday and I've been nervous about it since I made it!

So I understand how you feel, invisible. It's hard to think of a response when you get cut off mid-stream. Doctors often don't seem to remember how our thinking gets slowed, how we might be intimidated by them, or how confused our thoughts are. Yes, he might have had a "human moment" (good phrase, btw), but it still makes it difficult to deal with people who are supposed to be helping us.

Anyway, I'm glad you haven't cut over this, invisible. As for the new counselor, I'd start off saying that you feel the meds aren't working anymore (and you don't expect things to be perfect!) but you just need some help. And then the thoughts you mentioned here -- how you feel you've let your parents down, how you hate yourself, etc.

I hope you like your new counselor and get some new meds that work! {{{{hugs}}}}}

I forgot to mention that I went to a specialist about my throat and he must have interrupted me at every turn. I think he just liked to hear himself talk. So, I cancelled my appointment with him and went back to another doctor. Sure glad did.

I canceled my concilling appointment just don't feel ready to talk to another councillor first one just talked about herself they other one just laughed at what I said or td not to feel the way i do, thank u all for all your comments and advice it's not really the doctor that made me want to cut I was going to tell him that I was having thoughts about it again, sometimes I don't say what I really mean... Sorry about that. Have a nice day.. Hugs

I hope you will give reconsider giving counseling a chance when you are up to it. I just started counseling for the first time this week. I pretty much let her drive the conversation because she asked me questions and it went pretty well. The other thing you can do is think about one issues that you'd like to work on the most and talk about that first.

Ty

best of luck 2 u invisible . i no from my own life experience that the right therapist can not only change your life 4 the better but often save it . if u reconsider finding the right match 4 u i would recommend writing down your issues & bringing your text with u on the appointment . it may also help 2 tell the individual that u would like 2 address what u had reviewed prior to their overpowering your thoughts . often even ppl that want 2 help get waylaid & make matters worse .

I agree with starsunshine. A good counselor can be a lifeboat in a tumultuous storm. They can buoy u up or even bring you back from the brink. It seems like an impossible hurdle to get over right now, but once you do, you'll feele exhilirated and empowered. I know thats how i felt. And now i feel so grateful and blessed for the essential support i get from counseling. They could talk to you about your cutting and give you strategies and tools to help you deal with those thoughts

There are other doctors out there who will listen to what you are saying....you just need to find one. I am concerned about your cutting...I would change doctors. Please hang in there. We are here for you, and we care.

you dont always get along with all the councelars or doctors i had two doctors i didnt get along with one would youn he was just about falling asleep while i was ther but i used him i knew i needed to talk to get better an i just kept talking and some times he didnt belive me what i said and it made me angry but i understood it isent something not everyone understands .................the doctor i have now is a good one and he belives me ..............he treats me well an has realy helped me ...............i know it is hard to keep going out and finding that right councelor but once you have found them it is so worth it dont stop trying ...............and everything has to come out if you want to get better i learned that the hard way ................i hope you find someone to talk to ..........in the mean time this is a good place to be ...............be strong ..................loke after your self .............god bless