I've even been wanting to cut again I haven't in like 8 months.

If it's been 8 months then you can go another 8 months without doing it. That's what you need to tell yourself. You don't need to cut.

Yeah, in my mind I need to, and that's not they only thing about depression that is hard right know,

You can let it all out here. It's good to get it out of your system. What else is bothering you ? Try hard to tell yourself not to...try very hard.

I just feel I can't win in life can't get anywhere , hate myself, I just hate myself soo much, feel like I let my parents done in alot of ways,feel like a outsider and a alien, the cutting thoughts aren't so strong today like it was a couple days ago, I' always have hurting myself some way on my my mind weather it's pinching till I bruise or killing myself. I just don't really know what else to say. Ty for. Listening

You have to remember, it's the depression telling you all those things. I am sure your parents don't think you let them down. Life is a struggle...not just for you but for everyone. That's what life is, and you don't have to feel like an outsider ....not here. You are a human being worth so much more than you think or that your depression is making you think. You don't have to hurt yourself...not ever. I'm almost always here to listen. If I'm not someone else is. Feel free to get it all out ....it really does help. Express yourself in words instead of hurt. Please.

His statement was true. So what? Continue explaining yourself. YOU let him cut you off. You should have just kept explaining what you needed to tell hiim.

Yeah, I know everyone has troubles. Thanks for your guys advice

Invisible... I didn't mean it to sound like that at all. I just wanted you to know you are not alone. I tend to keep to myself here..... now you know why. Even when I try to make someone feel better I still screw up. No wonder I'm by myself.

You did make me feel better, sorry I didn't mean to make it sound that wY, I appreciate you listening to me, I am here if u ever need to vent.

Hey it's the net. Sometimes its easy to misunderstand people because of the lack of non-verbal cues and not being able to hear someone's voice. Try not to beat yourself up about it Jack. And good luck invisible. Don't be afraid to tell your doctor to let you finish. If your doctor is good, they'll let you fully say what you mean. And if not, well, might be time to find a new one. Keep on posting here too!

Jack your advice sounded good to me. Invisible I am very proud of you for not cutting yourself for 8 months. If this continues with your Dr then maybe you can look into getting a new Dr. We need to be listened to. We also need compassion. Keep in touch and let us know how you are. I am fairly new to this site and we have a wonderful support group here. 'Hugs'

I have a brand new councillor I'm seeing on Monday, what do u guys open up about with a new councillor?

Well i'll usually mention anything that's immediately relevant that I want help with, but mostly I treat it just as a chance for them to get the big picture about me. Life history, symptoms, that sort of thing. Just sort of an introduction so to help them begin to understand me.

It sounds like your doctor had a *human* moment. Sometimes I forget that doctors are human too and have bad days just like anyone else. If it becomes a pattern, then a discussion would be in order or even changing docs, as others have said.

If it had happened to me, I think I would work up the courage next appointment to tell the doctor just how his response affected me and that I really need for him to not interrupt me in the future. Notice I said "work up the courage". I'm not good at confronting people, so it's a big step for me to tell someone how their behavior affects me. I suspect you and I have that in common. I hope you are able to get your needs met.

Annie