Right now I want nto die:( That is why I started this post. I don`t want to live any more. If I met the right person who understands the pain of depression. I pray to Yeshua That I can find someone who cares. I live in Sterling Heights Michigan. About 20 mmiles noth of The D Detroit. If anyone who lives near Detroit and could take me to DBSA meeting in Warren. For noew I am going to try to get into Havenwyk. It`s my favorite mental Hospital in Auburnb Hills Michigan. Perace out and luv to all!!!

Tonight I want to die. I am isolated all alone stuck with my fucked up thoughts. That is why I started this thread. I do not always want to die. I would rather spend some time at Havenwyk than actually dieing. I have a water leak in the pipe going to the water heater.Itt has been leaking for a month. I dread seeing my water bill. My water bill will probably be $100 to $200.

Please go to the hospital! I want to see a reply from you after you've been in the hospital and in an at least okay mood!!

I have hno plan to end my life tonight. I did put 20mg of methylphenidate and 3 mg of lonapion and took 15mg of hydrocodone. With a few beers I feel alot better. I talk nto my brother in law and I should be able to fix the leak. I do want to go to Havenwyk a hospital in metro detroit really close to the Palace of Auburn Hill where the Detroit Pistons play plus concerts. Right now I do not want to die I just want to be happy. I came up with the thread because us depressed people feel like we want to die but we really just want to be happy.

I'm new here and have been trying to figure out if this is a social gathering place or an actual support site.
I've never been to one where membership was not by invitation only and moderated closely as well. The one I'd been on had to shut down because the mods had to leave the area they were in and no one could take over their positions:(
At any rate...I find your post to be much like things were at the other place.
You said " I came up with the thread because us depressed people feel like we want to die but we really just want to be happy. "
I can't agree with you more. I myself live with a hoarder, this one should be on the national tv show!!!! There are other issues going on as well but it's ever so depressing to live in this h***.
Happiness is an element I no longer hold out hope for but I do offer it to you because......
It sounds like you do have at least on option and I pray you will use it for your own self. That's something many of us do not have, at least I don't. Maybe if I did I wouldn't be stuck in this mentality.
I hope you stop mixing those meds with alchohol as well, you said you didn't want to die today but your actions speak far louder:(:(

I was lonely until George Thourogood came on the radio with the song I drink alone. When I drink alone I prefer to be my self. Me and my buddy wiser. makes me feel good. Snorting klonapin and ritalin with my good buddy wiser plus 15mg of hydrocodine is the closest I have to being happy in a long time. It is atypical for more than %50 of depressed bi-polar people to abuse alcohol and drugs. If I had a $20 rock and a stem I would be in Heaven. I am just being Honest. If I can`t be happy with my life I can achive pleasure through drugs and alcohol. I do not care if I live or die anyway:);(...?

Right now I wannt to die. Dieing is easy living is the hard part.

Right now ant ie. I can understnt everybody n the crisis center who ant to leanv tihis col cruel an ad soiety. The rch do care about us!! I wnt to be wth GD!@!!!

TMMW go to yu tub own the opyrite FTMMW.

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