You have been posting about this since 2008. When are you going to get out of there???

i think you need to go to the hospital.

maybe you should focus on moving out of there, i think it's majorly stressing you out and you're overwhelmed. when i lived at home i was extremely depressed but it lessened after i moved out...could work for you

yep, you need outta there ASAP!!!

Maybe you could start with this: There are already 2 people that love you and might wish that you stick around for a little longer. Jesus Christ and God...well, that can be a long shot especially now when you're trying to die so badly. I think it is considered a sin to take your own life so this could be another reason to keep hanging on. It you feel that you can, stop drinking because this can enhance your depression. I keep reading your post again and again hoping that this is a joke and you didn't actually take those pills. The fact is...nobody can actually help you except yourself because not one single person knows or feels what you feel right now. It sounds so boring and sooo last year but it is extremely true- And this comes from a person that is depressed almost every day and tried several times to end this 'Hell of being human' as you named it. There must be at least ONE thing that makes you smile during the day. I don't know if you have the means to move out but if you don't then try to get out of the house as often as possible. Talk with your parents about your situation and try to make friends with anyone at this point that seems nice and positive. You need around you someone that can make you laugh. I do hope your attempt didn't work out and sorry for the loooooong reply but it seems like you need some sort of advice.

I went to the ER last night. I did not call the crisis center. I do not see that number on every phone I have. The police and paramedics woke my ass up. The cops were assholes. They would not let me grab my clothes. No I did not take much more of my seaqiul and klonapin. It5 freaks me out that I did not call the crisis center. Maybe GOD called the crisis center. I get discharged in a bathing suit. sleeveless shirt and a pair of socks. I am going to partial on monday if I can get there. I am in Michgan I froze my ass off.

Maybe try to focus on what you want out of life, looks like you don't like yourself very much, taking an overdose is a call for help..posting this tells me you really don't want to die you feel trapped. can you work on finding other housing, it's unhealthy for you. you have a choice to change your situation or just talk about it, what can you live with? It's sad you hurt yourself because you feel hopeless. Are you going to let your brother have power over your life, take control and change your life, go back to school, become a peer specialist help others through your personal experience.

God bless that you are OK. I can sympathize with the much added anxiety/stress of the hoarding situation. My house doesn't qualify yet but has its signs of it and 7 animals and an unmotivated 21 yr old Son only add to the mess but I love them. The cluttered out of control atmosphere will definitely increase the depression and hoplessness. I pray you will take some steps in eliminating some of these stress factors.

After I went to sleep somebody called the crisis center. I was sound a sleep. I did not call the crisis center. I wonder if somebody from daily strength notified the crisis center. At about 4:30am I was awoken by cops and paramedics. Cops can be assholes they would not let me grab my pants and shirt. I was dishcharged wearing only a bathing suit , sleeveless shirt and socks. I am in a partial program right now. I am in a stress management group in the computer room. Today I do not feelike I want to die;) Now I have to solve the problems of my enviroment. Look at my pictures and you will see why I am so depressed. Peace and Love to all of us on DS:)

I was born an raised in Mi. and this is not the time of year for beachwear!!! I am so sorry that happened to you...I hope you got to partial Mon,. and that the subject of your living conditions came up.
I don't know what resources you have there, if any, maybe some other town not to far away where you could get subsidized housing and other assistance. I live with a hoarder, he has destroyed a once beautiful home so know how that is first hand.
I hope with all my heart there is a resource there to help that you just aren't aware of yet. Maybe a homeless shelter that could steer to you better housing? A United Way if there is one nearby?
I'm sure the city you live in has grown since I grew up in NW Mi. and can only hope they've grow up enough to have resources for you.
I respect leaving is not as easy as 1-2-3.

I am in partial in Warren Michigan. I t is part of the Saint Johns network of hospitals.It is a very good program. Today I do not want to die.!!!

i'm glad you're doing better :)

So very glad you made it and that it is working for you...

You've moved away from the suicide thinking and that in itself is tremendous progress.

Please stick with it, even if it gets a bit rough for a short time....it is a way to help yourself and may even show you resources to get out of there.

i AM REALLY LONELY AND depressed. The only friend I have right now is my best friend Bud wiser. I love beer if I quit drinkinking I would DIE!!! Buid Wiser is a better friend than Jack Daniels.It is gonna be in the 70`s all week in Michigan. I want to move to Canada. Being in a suburb of Detroit I am with in 20 miles from Windsor. There are no homless bpeople in Windsor. their Government takes care of thier people. They don`t have a 14 trillion dollar debt. they have a a lot of oil in the oil sands. I luv everybody who gave me good advice. Peace Out.

I might get evicted because of my brothers ocd hoarding. Right now suicide sounds like a go,od idea. If I am dead I won`t have to worry about being evicted and homeless.