Last couple of days have been pretty horrible...I have been feeling a gradual darkness covering my mood,,,been reading some self help books and the have helped some...the physical feelings still reside in my conciousness and they ebb and flow throughout the day...I am on no medication,,,which makes my moodswings somewhat problematic,,,I have no family and a couple of friends I get to call now and again,,,Do not want to put a strain on what relationships I do have,,,,,I realize that everyone and particularly now has massive problems they have to confront on a daily basis,,what with unemployment, strains in relationships. financial concerns, the list seems endless,,,
I think that I am in a better situation than some..but still my thoughts and feelings are taking me for a hell of a ride,,and I don't particularly like it ,,,I also realize that this is a temporary situation for me ,,,that it is also something of a learning experience as well,,,if I can focus in on that piece then it changes the tone a bit ,,,and that is what I need to remember ,,,