but it will not always be this way.

i agree with lou2.

There was an ice storm last weekend... imagine finding your child dead in a field, their body glazed over with ice.

Sorry to be graphic, but that is suicide, an image that will never leave the grieving parents who found his note and searched the fields to find him.

You asked if anyone knew anyone who committed suicide... I answered. This is the most recent in my own real world.

Don't do that to your parents, don't do that to your kids. Ice or no ice, no matter how you do it, dead aint pretty.

I'm surprised anyone here thought this post was anything other than a cry for help and support. Come on, so many of us have been there, and only love and support help get through it. I'm here for you Belle.

The only way you would not be a good parent is to leave your kids with nothing but the misery of going through life without their mother. My mother died young (not by suicide) and left four young children and I've seen first hand what that did to them (and to me even though I was older). The best way for you to love them is to get better. Taking care of yourself is a way of loving others - sounds paradoxical but it's true. You have to take care of yourself to be able to care for others. Keep working on your therapy and tell your counselor you need different drugs if what you're on isn't working.

My brother committed suicide last year and left behind his daughter, who just turned 7. She cried on the anniversary of his death, and she cried when he wasn't at her birthday party. She cries because she can't see him. Please think about how much it would hurt your children. It would shatter them. {{hugs}} Fight that suicide spirit following you. Embrace the goodness in your life and hang on until it gets better. It will, just like Zaza.. said, it will not always be this way.

belle, noone wants to help you end your life! and most of us struggle to not think about ending ours... I for one spend most of my recent days looking for reasons to keep going.

So Let me tell you this... do what ever it takes to stay alive... you are needed and cared for. Our depression does not allow us to realize just how special we are. It is part of the illness.

Also part of this illness is ignoring the fact that we need meds. So I am going to say that if you are not on any, you might consider talking with your doctor ASAP. If you are on them... then like me "they have stopped working"

So with much care, respect and hope I am ending this reply by saying that this post did make me angry, and confused... but I am not judging you just trying to undrstand and help.

there are many ways in witchone could kill him/herself
the questin is do you wanna go quik or slow?

The best way to killing yourself is posts like these! Bad post Belle, not a thing to ask. But message me if you need someone to talk to.