Hello there! Thank you for reaching out. I'm really sorry that you lost your mom at such a young age. I imagine the grief can be overwhelming at times. Rightly so, as losing a mother it's like losing a part of yourself. I can only say that because I lost my mother when I was 27. And it was really challenging.

It's all right to feel the grief right now, and it's also great that you're seeing a professional to try to get your meds situated. Getting through grief is a process, but I do want to encourage you that the degree of it will lesson over time. And someday it'll just hurt less.....

I'm no stranger to dealing with depression. Experienced it since I was young. It kind of took a backseat while I was raising my children, but hit me hard when they were teenagers and then I went through a divorce. I went to support groups..... saw a therapist some....I would say that my decision to follow a spiritual path is the thing that helped me more than anything else. Now, a decade later, I am not depressed very often and in fact, experience joy a lot.... But it took a lot of inner healing work.... lol

Do you have other family and friends for a support network? I always feel that making meaningful connections with others can be helpful in managing depressive symptoms. Because the reality is that feeling lonely or alone can be very depressing. As I'm sure you know.

I want you to know that you're not alone and that there are some of us here that will encourage you and hold space for you at this time in your life. My Hope Is that you can find peace no matter what's going on in your life.

You're a good soul. A beautiful soul. That depression.... those negative emotions...they are not the "real" you. I don't know what your life has been like....but I do know you are worthy.... worthy of unconditional love from yourself and others.... and you matter. I repeat: YOU MATTER! ;)

I'm not sure if this is making sense, but I just wanted to reach out.

Thank you. I have a brother and dad but my family has never been very open, we check on each other every few days but my best support is my friends. I've got some really good ones.

I've been meaning to get a tattoo that is a constant reminder that there's always hope but I haven't gotten it yet

I'm glad you have great friends, and are in touch with your family. A tattoo sounds good.... many people enjoy that!!

I hope you have a good day. Feel free to check in here when you're needing support.....

Hugs!

Thank you! ^_^

I'm sorry you are suffering this way. You have suffered a great loss. It may sound crazy, but it is a good thing that you seem to recognize your struggles. I, too, have dealt with depression and anxiety from a young age. But, I'm just now (age 38) dealing with it for what it truly is. I have allowed pride to keep me from a diagnosis for years. My latest was also brought on by difficult trials. Our son was diagnosed with brain cancer and then I lost an uncle in a tragic death. These things, together, proved to be more than my mind could handle. However, I found myself surrounded by people that cared for me deeply. So many have shared their own struggles with me and oddly enough, that has given me hope. I have found that God is near to the broken-hearted. I pray you will find this to be true as well!

I am sorry about you losing your mom but, she is with you always because she is a part of you. It is never easy to give up our loved ones, especially mom. It is good you have friends to support you and also glad you have your dad and a brother left. Look in the mirror and know that part of your mom is in you and with you. As I grow older, I see more traits of my dad come to my realization,. as do others. No-one can take your memories of your mom from you and cherish the times you had with her. These always bring comfort. I think of my mom and dad and, I smile at some of the fun times we had and to think of my childhood. These memories are indeed treasures that will last us a lifetime. Think on these things. I wish you the best.