The loss of a child is very tragic, and I am so sorry for your loss.

There is a bereavement group here, you might want to look it up. Here is a link for it:

https://www.dailystrength.org/group/bereavement

Please consider looking us up.

How old was your child when he/she passed?

I understand in a way but not as completely as you have. My son was 7 months in utero when my wife killed herself and him. If you need to talk I'm here

Please check your area for free grief and depression groups. It would help you to connect with some caring people in person. sorry for your terrible loss. Read about grief and depression - webmd.com - and talk to your doctor about possible medication. check into therapy also so you can get free from being stuck. Keep in touch.

Some hospitals have grieving classes, most welcome everybody, even if you have never used their services.

GRACE to You, and PEACE...from GOD our Father, and the LORD, King Jesus.

I am truly SO SORRY for Your loss.

I lost my Mother last year, so I really do understand that LOST feeling...
I can't offer any advice beyond that because I haven't resolved it for myself...I just hope you get comfort from knowing that your feelings are justified and understood.

Thank you everyone for your response it feels better to talk about how I feel then keeping. I did go to grief counseling about 6 months. I was diagnosed as having complicated grief I believe to a degree I still do. I will check out the grief support group online because that would probably work best for my work schedule. Since I started a new job I now have insurance, so I am back on anti depressants as of a few days ago. My son was 26 years old when he died we were estranged for 2 years before he died. I received a call from his wife the day after he died. I never got to say goodbye. I knew my son had an illness, but I didn't know other conditions that were the real cause of his death. Looking back there were times when my son tried to tell me. Almost 2 years before his death he was visiting me during that visit he got drunk and started arguing. He said horrible hurtful things. He and his wife left immediately. I figured he needed time to cool off. That was the last time I saw my son. So many things has happened after my son died what I realized is that I have always been depressed and very unhappy in my marriage wish is mentally abusive at times. So here I am not really knowing what to do. In the past I have always pulled myself out of a rut. I find myself very much alone most of my loved ones gone. I am hanging on because I still have one child who is still a minor. It's a daily battle because half my heart is gone, and I feel lost. Depressed recluse I emphasize with your loss my Mother died when I was 15. Losing a parent is a big loss too. EJ1 your loss who be extremely hard for me my heart empathizes with you too.

I am sorry! Hugs

First off I am sorry for your loss. I never had children so I can't say I totally understand what you are going through. But know that I am here if you ever need to talk or just vent. I lost my father at the age of 19 and it was horrible and I felt like my world was never going to be the same. But I am now 50 yrs old and I have learned to deal with it. They are never really gone we carry them in our hearts.... Check out a local hospital to see if they have bereavement support group. It helped me to know I wasn't alone.

Are you at all close to your son's wife? My dad kept a close relationship with his son in law after his daughter died, and I think it was a win for both of them. He (my sister's husband) has mostly processed the loss of his wife and appears to be ready to get married again; dad was ready for this.

You are both missing the same person, perhaps she and you can help each other?

Gentle hugs

I am so sorry that you are going through this really awful time. Grief is lonely and all engulfing. Not having your husband to lean on must feel like a betrayal at this critical time. It's still so fresh (your loss) and it can take a long long time to move beyond a huge loss like that. I am here for you. For some a bereavement group can be helpful, for others just knowing that you are important and loved as a human being can be a balm to this deep wound in your soul. Much Love and Sincerest Condolences on this huge loss

I haven't answered because I just dident know what to say ........I just read the port above ...and listened to there song for ....the one they lost .........and it brought back ........the memory of the loss of my brother ...it hit me very hard ......I have peace today because ...I know ware he is ...he came to me after he passed away .....showed me just a little pice of heaven ...gave me mesages ...to ..give out .........I still miss him to this day .........I could say it gets easer ......but all I realy know is that you have to live on .......get what ever help you can get ....to help you .......know that you will be with him again ..as I know I will see my brotherr again ........my brother came to me because he wanted me to be ok ...to take some of that pain away .....they want us to live on ....and not to hurt .so much .....they watch over us ......you can talk to him ....he will here you .....my brother came to me when I was awake ......but if you have ..a beautiful dream that ..is so vivid that you never forget ...about your son ..that is a visit ........ I am so very sorry for your loss ...I will keep you in my prayers ...please take very good care of your self ......God bless you ...and yours ......