Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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denial, fear, or comfortable

happynaz
happynaz
I have been battling depression and anxiety since around 2000. Lately it's like I'm really depressed, and I'm trying to find the root of my depression. On top of the depression I suffered a massive trauma back in 2012, which completely turned my world upside down. Every since then I have failed to get my life back on track. I have really bad self esteem and body image issues, I am overweight and I'm wondering if that's one of the things that's depressing me but yet I cant get motivated to change it. Each day I struggle to survive or make it through the day with my anxiety. Nothing interests me anymore, I've been on meds/medications before and they worked totally or completely opposite on me, they made me act crazy.

Deep down i feel that I dont want to be depressed but yet I do nothing to change it, I was going to therapy years back for my depression and now it's like I have no motivation to go or feel like going. Back in 2005 I was in a bad rut but I was able to pull myself out of it. I am afraid my trauma has changed me and not for the better and it scares me everyday. i used to be able to get involved in relationships, work, go to school go out, have friends etc. I just dont know what's wrong with me, am i in denial or just afraid to live. Am i delusional and thinking we get second chances which i know is not accurate. What are peoples struggles with depression and how do they change it?
soulsearcher83
soulsearcher83
I've had severe depression for a decade. Been on a slew of meds over the years, in and out of the hospital, not a fun decade.

I had ect last year, got a good job, had weight loss surgery, adopted a dog, and finally graduated from college.

Still not sure how I did all that given my horrid starting point a few years ago.

Trauma alone is horrible. Trauma with depression is like a double whammy. I'm sorry for your suffering. And I can relate to the medication frustrations.

Start with a new therapist and psychiatrist. The right ones make all the difference.

You might want to look into ect or transcranial magnetic stimulation if you are treatment resistant.

I also started using art therapy on my own. Bought a few books on the subject. It helped me a lot.

Also I use tapping. Check out tapping.com. it looks silly at first but it really helps me when I'm at a very low point.

Take it one step at a time. Every step is a victory.
whatswrong19
whatswrong19
I've had depression probably since 11 years old. I have issues too with anger, I'm not a hothead but I can be very nasty and the things that make me a good person, such as being very perceptive about others can also make me a nasty person when I allow it to happen.

I've also been overweight, but it's never been my weight that I was depressed about, at least I don't think so, cause I always knew I could lose it, and I have lost about 50 pounds over the past 8 years, it wasn't all at once cause I didn't feel desperate over it, but reading Dr Phil's book on losing weight helped me immensley with that part of my life.

I still do the emotional eating thing, but not as often now. I'm still not at my goal weight either, but it really isn't the most important thing to me, so I can understand what you say about feeling unmotivated, cause you have to ask yourself, how is this going to make my life any better, and sometimes for me it's hard to find an answer. lately I haven't even looked for an answer, it was just something to do, a routine, you know, excercising and eating healthy, not even weighing myself.

But the depression, that's always been a battle, and I think people who are depressed are far more in touch with reality than those who are not, and if we can learn ways to manage it, we are much clearer on life and have truer expectations. But then we can get in those places that are so dark they become dangerous. that's why managment is important.
Heidiclark
Heidiclark
I would suggest taking small, managable steps each day. Ask yourself what you can manage each day to work toward your goals. I know it's hard when you have no energy and no motivation which is why it's important to just focus on what you CAN do each day. And therapy is important when there's been trauma. That should also help the motivation.
billwfriend
billwfriend
motivation lost is a symptom of depression....I guess I need to give this more thought because I need to go out of my house now to get a student for driving lesson in 20mins...bye...
muskrattiger
muskrattiger
I have had depreshion all my life at one leaval or a nother ..I have been better and I have been worse ....trama .....I belive nearly distroied me ...and so this is what is left ...this is the third time I have been on meds ..because I don't like to have to be on meds and ...I am on them as a last resort .........I keep trying to tell people .....if you haven't broken .....don't weaight untill you do befor you get help ....and yes that migh include going on meds ...........but better that than breaking .....just go on meds slowly ....pay attention .to what..the sidefects are ....and tell the doctor exactualy how you feel ...get everything out everything that has ever hurt you ...or if you have hurt some one....so bad ..it has hurt you ..........it doesent mean you are a bad person it meanes you are human .............................if you break ..than ..you will ..have a 50 percent chance of breaking again ..and if you break a second time ..you have a 75 present chance ...of breaking again ..............................do we get second chances ...you don't seam to belive we do ...or that you do ....but we do have chouices ............we can chouise ...to ...love ....or to hate ......we can chouise to ..follow ..in a good path ...or not .......to ...be spiritual or not .........I am not saying ...I am not saying ...the chouices ....to love ....to take the good path ...to be spiritual ....will be easey ..because it won't .....but you can stand strait ......with the knolage ....that ...you ....made a stand in this world ....against ...all obistacals ....and no one will know but you and ...those ..you have touched .....so that is what I chouise ...untill this world plowes me under ....I will not go by my Owen hand ........no mater how much or how long I suffer .........and you might ask how do I know this .....because ......I have been there once ......I just shut dowen ........my husband took me to the hospital ....ware they gave me ...ECT.....or I would not be here now ...I might be alive ...but .....if my husband hadent put me in the hospital ...with my permition ...and had they not gave me ECT .....I would be lost ....never to be reached ....again ......and there are times like now ..when I think ...it might of been easer ....to be lost ..to not .know .who I am ..or ware I was ....in what world was real ........it might of been easer ....but I chouice ...to ..fight ...if I fall it will not be for the lack of ..fighting ....so I chouise to love unconditionally ...to follow in gods path ...ware ever .that takes me .....sorry I gess this sounds like as peach ...it is just me hanging on .........take care everyone ....I keep you all in my prayers ...God bless .....
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