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darkest place I can go

whatswrong19
whatswrong19

I'm in a really bad state.  I hate this job.  I don't want to do anything here, I hate this agency. this agency that has given me a job, I hate it.  I want out so bad, but have nothing inside me to give me what I need to look for another job, I've been trying to get out of this profession for 10 years, but I can't, I've tried so many times, I am seriously considering ending my life, cause it's nothing but horror, constant expectations of the impossible,  constant horror, constant pressure, I'm about to check out for real. I don't know how much will change before I get home, I hate being alive. I hate everything about it.

AnxietyFreak40
AnxietyFreak40
no job is worth that much pain. What do you do? Can you move into another area? Hugs!!!
whatswrong19
whatswrong19
not if i want to pay my bills
whatswrong19
whatswrong19
thanks, im feeling a little better now
sharaninmd
sharaninmd
Since this job is causing you so much pain, is it possible to stay with the agency, but transfer to another position? It might make a difference for you. I am here if you want to message me.
whatswrong19
whatswrong19
I wouldn't get paid enough for any other position
Heidiclark
Heidiclark
So sorry you are still struggling with your job. How is the smoking going?
NotWanted247
NotWanted247
Have you told the agency that you do not like the job that you have and ask if they could help you find a new one that you would like?
soulsearcher83
soulsearcher83
Do you want the pay or do you want sanity? You should consider just leaving this particular position and the agency to transfer you or take a lower paying job in order to move into that new profession you want to move into. When you get paid less? Probably. But you'll be alive and you can regain the momentum of making that money again.
nightingale77
nightingale77
Hi there, glad you are feeling better and this avenue has been great with wonderful people who are ready to journey with you. Understand you mentioned thatyou wouldn't be paid as much and sometimes it's really when you have many committment to think about. Any possibility to speak to your boss or HR to get some of the job issues sorted out?? If not, might be good to trim down some of the committment (whichever is possible). Prayed for you.