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The day started in good spirits as I finished my first draft on the book I've been writing with enough not to post a journal about it.
But as the day progressed, a Domino of events have ruined my day. Firstly for those who read my joyful journal I feel I need to explain that I had just reached the goal of actually just completing the story in rough draft. Now I need to edit and revise. There is nothing outside personal accomplishment achieved. It is a goal met and I feel good about that at least.
I am reluctant to speak of faith here as each has a varied opinion and I'm not waiting to get into and God vs Not diatribes. But I'm disappointed in some people's views that 'the blood of goats and rams' in sacrifice has been replaced with the 'blood of the wallet' when according to the Bible, the sacrifice that Jesus gave removed the barrier between man and God and the need for sacrifice. My understanding is tithes is to help maintain the church and it's needs and gladly gave for that upkeep. But some pressure (in my feeling) that it is 'sinful' if you don't give till it hurts. Well, times are hard for us all, and this vent isn't really wanting religious opinions or bashing. It's just more a sad realization of how rough the world is on us all and there things we'll think to get use through. This triggered other issues, like my beautiful son who has high functioning autism and is the kindest, gentle soul. But it brings dread of worrying about him in this world. There's not really anything that can be said about that, dad's just going to have to do his best for him as long as he can.
Lack of friends or a loved one can wear in times like this also. Tried social sites but most I communicated with were scams, narcacists, or liars. Don't do the bar scene, was a bouncer for 6 years and know that joke ALL too well. Work freinds are just that, as most show thier caveman mentality of derogatory humor at female anatomy.
So just going to write this day off and keep going. Some days suck, some days suck less.
Hugs to all my friends here. Everyone find happiness
I feel similarly about my color piece that I mentioned- I started off well, then anxiety quickly set in. I managed to get through that and finish it, but I am mainly tired and not proud.
It’s also weird to think of you being a father yourself, and so much older than me. The internet blurs demographic and age and other defining factors of ourselves. I am just words in a box, and so is everyone else. That is all we are judged by (at least, until someone goes to my profile and sees that I’m just a “wee teen”.) Despite all that separates us I’ve noticed that we all have similar struggles.
I feel the same about a lack of friends, I know trying times would be easier if I could rely on somebody. But I am picky, stingy with my trust, and overly sensitive, so for the most part I’ve always felt I am on my own. This site gives me some reprieve, but it doesn’t cure all.
Always keep on keeping on. In trying times I like to imagine every understanding person I’ve met here behind me.
ive also struggle with spirituality and 'organized' religion. though i tend to keep it to myself as people can easily get offended and I do fear of saying the wrong thing sometimes.
keep writing! it definitely helps, and I do like getting comments on my posts/journals in DS. I often get the support I need from here that I dont get outside.
cheers! =)
Good luck with your spiritual journey. It can bring forth questions, but also contentment.