The day started in good spirits as I finished my first draft on the book I've been writing with enough not to post a journal about it.
But as the day progressed, a Domino of events have ruined my day. Firstly for those who read my joyful journal I feel I need to explain that I had just reached the goal of actually just completing the story in rough draft. Now I need to edit and revise. There is nothing outside personal accomplishment achieved. It is a goal met and I feel good about that at least.
I am reluctant to speak of faith here as each has a varied opinion and I'm not waiting to get into and God vs Not diatribes. But I'm disappointed in some people's views that 'the blood of goats and rams' in sacrifice has been replaced with the 'blood of the wallet' when according to the Bible, the sacrifice that Jesus gave removed the barrier between man and God and the need for sacrifice. My understanding is tithes is to help maintain the church and it's needs and gladly gave for that upkeep. But some pressure (in my feeling) that it is 'sinful' if you don't give till it hurts. Well, times are hard for us all, and this vent isn't really wanting religious opinions or bashing. It's just more a sad realization of how rough the world is on us all and there things we'll think to get use through. This triggered other issues, like my beautiful son who has high functioning autism and is the kindest, gentle soul. But it brings dread of worrying about him in this world. There's not really anything that can be said about that, dad's just going to have to do his best for him as long as he can.
Lack of friends or a loved one can wear in times like this also. Tried social sites but most I communicated with were scams, narcacists, or liars. Don't do the bar scene, was a bouncer for 6 years and know that joke ALL too well. Work freinds are just that, as most show thier caveman mentality of derogatory humor at female anatomy.
So just going to write this day off and keep going. Some days suck, some days suck less.
Hugs to all my friends here. Everyone find happiness
Just feeling pretty lonely tonight. Been all day. I wish I had a good friend to chat with. Tv is what keeps me company. Anyone else around whose feeling lonely?
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