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can't keep pretending

whatswrong19
whatswrong19

I am into the "feeling REALLY depressed" mode.  I've been pretending everything fine, and that I want to be some what part of the people around me, BUT I DON'T.   I don't want to do anything,  I feel done,  just done putting forth effort to do anything.  I don't want to eat, drink, and I don't even care anymore about whether I sleep or not, I don't care that my body hurts all the time,  I don't care if I live or if I die.  not suicidal,  not like that, but just empty, the real meaning, is there is no meaning, the only thing that's guaranteed is death, I don't want to watch tv anymore, I don't want to smile and listen to others, I don't want to be a part of any social group, I just want to be done.  In my religion, it's exceptable to starve oneself to death,  that also gives you a lot of time to get over what ever screwed up chemicals are acting on you, I've gotten to a point where being hungry isn't even painful anymore, or thirsty,  don't get me wrong, I'm eating a little here and there, and drinking a little water here and there.  But in reality, I've just give up on everything, I don't want anything.

Tired
Tired
You should see your doctor. Medication may help you feel
better.
invisablefriend
invisablefriend
Change jobs.
Make a big move. If you live on the east move west. If you live north move south.
Solus
Solus
Sorry you’re feeling so bad. What you’re describing, the lack of interest, self care does sound like depression. I’d echo what Tired said about seeing your doctor.
Not eating or drinking is a way of self harming. You could end up with malnutrition in addition to your other burdens. Please try to take care of yourself. I hope sometime soon you will get your interest back.
shadowlady
shadowlady
I'm so sorry you're so depressed. I too think you should see your doctor. Antidepressants help tremendously. I know you don't want to do anything, but taking a walk every day and keeping a journal will help you feel better. Ill keep,you in my thoughts and prayers. If you need to talk, I'm here. Blessings.
whatswrong19
whatswrong19
thank you to everyone who posted, the thing about not eating, or "fasting" is you have time to feel better mentally, and once you can do that, you can get back on track. I'm supposed to be on antidepressants, I have taken them for years, what i want it to get to the root of the problem, myself, and defeat myself, get control over my mind, and my emotions, without the medication. you're right, the meds do help, but this is something I want to defeat.
Korbie
Korbie
There's NO shame in medication. If you had cancer would you refuse medication? Depression is a medical as well as emotional issue. You may need meds to feel better-
MrsOtto
MrsOtto
Please see a doctor for a full physical and tell her/him everything you’ve said here. The emptiness, the not smileing, the why even put forth the effort? Etc..
I’m 60 and just went through all this the past 2 weeks. Ive been depressed since my teens, the 1970s. Loved the disco dancing. But had to get drunk to feel a part of the group back then..not a good thing.
Finally diagnoses with depression/anxiety I got on drugs and wow, the dark cloud finally lifted off my body, i felt like I lost 100 pounds! So this is what normal feels like! WOW!

Be well and let us know if you are getting help.
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