Good Day all. Im not sure how much longer I can last with my wifes depression. Im tired of the mess in the house, I am tired of the kids asking me for everything when mommy is right here. Only to then hear that I manipulate kids against her. Sex is garbage and depressing (no pun intended), no love and then ofcourse because she is crazy she makes me feel like im the sick one.
I now have situational depression from her. Why did she want to have kids knowing that she was ill mentally even before I came here?
Im young. Is this my life with another human being?
I really want to die. I find no joy in my life. Everyone I cared for is dead or gone and the people I've met are I guess well meaning but clueless and disengaged because they have their own lives. I am terrified all the time. I'm terrified of losing my shelter, how to eat, whether or not someone is trying to hurt me. I'm so so tired of feeling this way and I've tried reaching out but I feel like...
I’ve been trying to take more pride in myself (encouraging pride, not snobbish pride) but it feels very empty when I cheer myself on. Will the real feelings come eventually? Any advice?