I'm sorry you're in so much pain right now, and that you've been having a hard time getting pregnant. I don't know anything about endometriosis, but you could you call the dr and ask some questions? I definitely think you should check into the pain you're having to make sure you're not in danger health wise. (((hugs)))

That pain should be checked out....the bills you still have is a bummer, and you will get more bills, but it's better than just doing nothing right? ...the not knowing would drive me crazy, and I'm sure is affecting your state of mind....

pregnancy tends to happen when we are relaxed and NOT thinking about it.

THe pain is an indicator of something. get it checked.....make a payment plan for the bills....

peace from me to you~

I had endometreosis. I diagnosed myself and then the OBGYN confirmed. Endo is so painful and I feel bad for you because I know what you are suffering with. The only time mine didn't bother me was when I was pregnant so I really didn't know what was wrong with me until I had my second boy. Then I went through 7 surgeries. After that, I told my doc to take it all out. That was it for me. In your case, you cannot do that until you have a child. You probably have to have the endoscopy again to confirm that it's back. You know, better then anyone, whether it's back again. Talk to someone in your Human Resources department and get some answers about your new insurance and what it covers. I hope really soon that you wake up with morning sickness.. :-) You know what I mean I hope, that was a good thing...

LOL! I understand exactly Grammy. I'm not taking a single thing for endo until I have a child, and with all of the sharp pains and endless back pain I am experiencing, I just have a gut feeling that the endo is back. I'll schedule an appointment and just go from there. Being as I am 34 and endo comes back so quickily, I feel like time is running out for me to get pregnant. Sure, there is a part of me that would LOVE to take some oxy for the pain, but you just don't do that when you are trying to conceive. Just trying to hang in there with nothing more than tylenol and ibuprofen.

I have to say I admire your commitment to motherhood! You sound like you are already a great mom! I need you to check out the insurance issue so you can ease your mind and be able to move on to the next step.
Best of luck and warm wishes.

I'm proud of you hon, and I just know you are going to have a child in no-time. I am living proof that endo does not stop women from having children. I had two with it. I too, could never find anything to help the stomach and back pain. I think the stomach pain is the worse. One idea for when your pain gets really bad are a couple of things. One is to soak in your tub with lavender Epsom salts, and then put a cold pack on your back for about 15 minutes, and then change off to your stomach. Do that for about an hour. Then switch from that to a heating pad. My endo use to last a minimum of 5 days and it was horrific, so I honestly know what you are going through. Now I just have to deal with other pain in my back and elsewhere. I really hope you wake up with that morning sickness soon and you have twins!!!! :-) A boy and a girl.

Well, twins do run heavily in my family, so you never know. I just scheduled an appointment for the 28th, so hopefully I can figure out what is going on.

I honestly feel like I am going nuts and i've been having many feelings of guilt. I feel as though part of me actually wants the endo to be back to both prove that I am not crazy and making up this pain, plus it would be the only way I could actually be able to get off of work and RELAX for once in my life. It sounds crazy, but I actually enjoyed having surgery back in March as I got to honestly relax for a week. The pain actually seemed like a small price to pay to actually be able to stay in bed and rest. Makes me feel like some sort of horrible person, but there is the other half that doesn't want endo and just wants to get pregnant as soon as possible.

Please, can someone please tell me whether my feelings make any sense or not?

I feel like I am going off the deep end. A part of me wants the endo to be back so that I can prove that I am not crazy and making this pain up and be treated seriously while finally being able to relax at home and not be stuck at my shit job. For once I would like to relax and do things that I enjoy but never have time to do, such as making art and working on the family tree.

Of course, there is also the other half of me that doesn't want anything to happen to me that would jepordise or delay me in having children. I also do not wish to have more money being spent on medical bills and would like to have a nice ammount of money in savings for if and when I do have a child. But, if it is not endo, then what could be causing all of this pain? That thought is what frightens me. With endo, at least I know what is going on. I guess i'm afraid of being diagnosed with something new.

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