you seem to have joined because you need support to get back to normal life and not be suicidal or depressed...I assume you are depressed to wish to die....I know that suicide is wrong decision and can leave you much worse off if attempting it fails and if it succeeds well what did you really gain besides a bunch of people who do not understand your decision and hate that you left them to deal with it....so do not even try that idea get on phone and either call your doctor and let him know what is going on or if need be call a hotline to talk to people who can help you understand there are ways to get thru this time of despair in your life....hugs

You are surrounded here by people who have, at times in their lives, wanted to die. Some of us try it, others, well, if we had to push a button each night in order to stay alive for the next day there are a lot of us who would not push the button.

So we know what you are saying.

But just as there are days that I hate to be alive, there are days I love being alive. I just hope I can get more of the good days than the bad days.

I have felt like nothing can ever help, but please know that good is out there. If you ever need someone to listen contact me. I will be glad to listen. I will be praying for you. Please look at the good you have in your life. I know it may seem like a small list, but the smallest things can sometimes make something great. Please keep looking at the good things.

Sorry for the intense suffering you're feeling. Try to take some help from others who have been in a similar situation until you can find help for yourself. Please reach out for help until you turn the corner. You will do better with help but don't keep to yourself. Call the suicide hotline if you need to, find a good therapist to be committed to, talk to your doctor about medication that can possibly help and refuse to give up one day at a time.

I to have had that thought as maNY of us have. You are amongst people who understand and really care. We are total strangers that have a common bond of hope. The pain it leaves behind is not fair to people who love us more than we can love ourselves sometimes

@Minidogs2 i already do all of those things nothing has helped

Trying different things to get your brain back on track and on the way off those suicidal thoughts are hard , noone will ever tell you its easy but noone will tell you its not worth it please message me whenever you need advice or just need to get your mind of things i came on here to try to get my mind off my thoughts etc. so i feel i can relate to you very well

are you on meds .....and have you and your doctor tried different meds in diferant combinations and diferant strengths ....have you tried ...ECT .....I had that once ....when I was suisidal and nothing would get me out of wad I was it was a life saver ......are you seeing a phicitrist or counclor ...and ..realy taking part in talking to them .....these things are all very important ..........on your road to recovery .........I have had depreshion at on leavel or a nother all my life .......and ended up in the hospital in m twenties ....the best thing that has ever happened to me ...have you tried to go into ospital ...yet ...you are just as important to your recovery as your doctor is ..if you don't tell your doctor exactualy how it is you feel inside ....he can't help you ......you need to talk ........I will keep you in my prayers ...take very good care of your self .....