I've decided (and I know it's going to be hard) that this year for my birthday, I'm going to be sober, for the first time since turning seventeen...eleven birthdays in a row I've been drunk, and most days between...birthdays are different though, they're supposed to be a celebration right¿...not this year...I have no intention of celebrating this year, or any other year, from now on...haven't had a good birthday since I was a kid, they're all so lonely to me...I don't care that I'm getting older, I care that I'm becoming more and more jaded and lonely and miserable...