I am a 20 yer old female. I never really believed I was depressed. I was always the happy friend of the group but here lately I haven't been myself. I reached out to my boyfriend and I let him in on my past. He knew I had had a rough life growing up. I lost my sister at the age of 16 due to addiction I gained my neice as a child. So it's always been hard to find someone to accept that part of me. I pushed everything down inside of me and just put a smile on my face and called it a day but I would come home and just lay around. My boyfriend has seen it all take a toll on me. He's been noticing a chane in me that I am not as outgoing as I used to be when we first met when we were 15. He's always held me when I get down on myself. We have been having problems because I don't open up to any one about how I am feeling. He is helping me through everything and trying but I just always push people away. I haven't told my parents how I am feeling because I am afraid. He's always been by my side and he's helping me seek professional help to try and help me and he wants me to tell my parents how I am feeling but I can't bring myself to do it. He hasn't left my side even if I have been ugly or rude towards him. He's never left my sie since I was 15. I have a cat as a coping mechanism and he went and got us a dog so I could sleep at night but I am up all hours of the night just laying in bed next to him staring at our celing. I am trying to get better but I am afriad talking to someone will just make it worse. I am just wondering if it ever gets better? He wants us to move to flordia and start all over for the both of us. We have both been batteling these demons together and we are both working on building to get better together.
So I am training on a different floor T work. The girl who is supposed to be training me isn't. She doesn't explain anything and walks around like I'm not even here. I am so mad! I am supposed to train with her again next. Week but I'd rather just be by myself. Should I ask my boss not to put me with this girl again or say so thing to the nurse? I don't know what to do.
I'm having one those depression spells where I can hardly move. I'm crying a lot, my body feels extremely tired and weak, there's so much emotional pain in my head and I have no motivation.I know this is a chemical imbalance but it seems like so much more.It's one of those times I want someone to hold and comfort me but thete's nobody nearby that can do that for me. It's like I'm becoming a...