I know the feeling. My mind races I worry like crazy sometimes about things I have no control over.

annieheart- yes I do that all time, especially tonight when there was thunderstorm.. I dont like them to start with but all the way home from work my anxiety was just on edge and I just felt my heart racing and feeling funny.. I know it's not something we can control let alone stop it but tonight it just made me really anxious that the only way i felt safe was when i was inside the bus..

Hi, you are not alone reaching out here is a good step, we are all here for you but if you would like to talk, vent or open up please pm me. This journey is awful, hard and seems like an endless dark tunnel. But at leat we’re not alone.

sounds like stress. the stress can build and cause anxiety then depression follows and make stress even harder to deal with. yes they feed each other can feel like a tornado in your head. one solution that can help is going outside for air and a little walk, can be refreshing if you can do it safely, like not in the dark at night. for some if its possible to lay down with head phones or earbuds and listen to relaxing tunes maybe meditate, or perhaps taking to a friend or talking to a crisis line. something to release the stress so it cant feed the tornado. you got to break the loop some how. the stress ,anxiety, depression loop . stress started it so its the one you stop. need more things to try? google stress reduction if you need more things to try.

I know the feeling. I am glad to know I am not alone

Depression drains us. It also lies to us with all it's negative messages about ourselves. Hopefully the sun comes out where you are today. Depression feeds on our doing nothing. Posting here is a good beginning. Calming and comforting hugs as you take any action you choose that will begin lifting the depression.

I am always here if you need to talk. I've been here 8 yrs. You can check me out with the CL's if you want. Don't let my username intimidate or scare you.
I was once a biker. Left that lifestyle, years ago.

Mayj13- thank you, it's been really hard to keep it together.. like all I want to do is cry!

AnnieToman- I did take a really long walk today, like for 3 hours.. I definitely needed it, I saw a counselor once when I needed to talk to someone about my emotions and such because at the time I was not in a good state of mind and they told me I was just stressed out and that I need to learn to do deal with it. I dont think it is stress more emotions and thoughts. But I appreciate your suggestions.

Inafog- it feels like an never ending cycle. Just goes around and around..

SimpsonsOK- it really does, I feel like It just saps everything away and leaves you empty.. yes, however I have bad anxiety so it can be hard to go out sometimes, but today I said screw it and I took a three hour walk and went out for lunch by myself because I really needed it.. thank you for kind words

A 3-hour walk, that's amazing. You should be proud of yourself. I need to do something like that!! It's just so hot and humid here though; I can't seem to make myself. Life responsibilities are definitely draining. When I find myself getting overwhelmed I try to sit down and make lists. Currently I do it on an app on my phone. I list what I need to get/do next paycheck and then somehow seeing it written down I'm better able to prioritize and categorize things and I can sometimes get into a calmer place. Hugs to you