Take your
Medication and you will eventually feel better. It's a process to get stabilized and use your psychiatrist to talk about how things are at home. Peace to you

bridgie101 is right and I second her perspective. You need to do what is right for you and your well being. The role of a psychiatrist is to learn your symptoms and prescribe medication. A psychologist or therapist / counselor will work with you on talk therapy and behavior modification. I found it extremely beneficial to include talk therapy with medication. It will help you stabilize and eventually taper off of the medication when you are ready. You need to surround yourself with people who are supportive of your choices and right now, your mom is hurting, not helping. Her issues are her issues, not yours. Hold your head up high and be proud that you are taking care of yourself by making choices that you determine are best for you. Deciding you want to make changes is a huge first step. We are here for you and are proud of you.

No, don't take it. Believe me, I speak from experience, SOME drugs actually CAUSE suicidal feelings and depression! Please research for yourself.

Some Anti-D's can cause suicidal thoughts in children and younger teens, they generally do not cause suicidal thoughts in adults. There's a reason a Psychiatrist prescribes the medication, you need to take it as directed, it will take a while to work, it can be a few weeks. See your Pdoc and the talking part of the Therapy will come, he put you on the medication first to get the suicidal thoughts and severe depression under control.

As for your parents they need to wake up and realize its 2017 and there is not that much of a Stigma over being depressed. The Depression rate in the U.S. is very high. Just go to your Dr., do as he says and leave your parents out of it, you don't need their negativity working against you.

Take care,
Kat

As for medication there are both homeopathic and prescribed options. St. John's Wort did not work for me, but changes in diet, exercise and specific supplements are working for me rather than a prescription. In either case you need to monitor how you are feeling and talk very honestly with your doctor and research the side effects for you. Make informed choices that you feel good about. Not one thing works for everyone. Sometimes it takes a little time to find the right combo. It can also be helpful to make a list of activities and healthful foods that make you feel good and keep track of the one's that dont. Doing this was helpful for me as I discovered an ingredient in food that made my depression horrible, which was msg. Having that list has been a useful tool that I can turn to when I need a boost. Have compassion and patience for yourself. This takes time and you are worth it.

Sounds like mom has her own mental health/emotional issues.

Genes, learned behavior, who knows, but detaching emotionally from your parents might work wonders

I know I learned a lot of anxious responses from my mother.

I was just imitating how I saw her behave. I'm learning to react differently.

As for meds, I'm not a huge fan unless they're absolutely necessary, but if they are, they are

I know myself well enough at this point to discern the necessity of taking such a step.

Thanks a lot for your comments guys ,, it helps me a lot!!
I feel uncomfortable taking medication at the moment, it doesn't feel right because my depression has a reason and I feel that I need to solve the issues that causes it first, otherwise it seems like just numbing drugs.
Also since I have no support around me I'm scared of the side effects and having my family know about it. I'd get lots of blame which will make me feel even worse. The way they come at me screaming makes me feel worse. Its not easy dealing with everything all alone, and that's where I'm at.

Ya me too hate taking drugs but with my present situation I cannot see the end of the tunnel for awhile with regards to family concerns... To save my marriage I need to have meds for couple of months as I'm not coping at all tried L. Theanine but no longer working...

He's a psychIATRIST. They primarily prescribe drugs. Find a psychOLOGIST. They're more into therapy through talking that you described.

It's hard when everyone is offering different advice. I have found talking to my therapist or primary physician and a close friend helps in sorting out what to do. Choose what is best for you. There is no shame whichever methods you choose, but make the choice for you and noone else. By the way: You are doing a great job communicating. You should be proud of you

Hi there, echoing @perry314's advice. Sometimes too many advice might cause certain level of confusion and anxiety. Might be good to talk openly to your psychiatrist if he can recommend some therapists to you. @koolman is right to be psychiatrist prescibe drugs. Ifyou wanna deal with issues with your running thoughts, good to see either a psychologist or a therapist.

Self-care is not selfish. You need to take care ofyourself first. Mental health illness is as real as it gets. Stigma takes time to clear. You need to show them how you can get better by doing what you need to do to be healed. Press on. Take care and I'm praying for you. God bless!

Sorry for what you are going through. I have been taking celexa for years without any problems. Don't let your parents make you feel guilty. Your parents don't understand what depression is. You need to do what is best for you. If you don't think your psychiatrist didn't ask you enough questions, either return to them and tell them you want to talk further or see a new psychiatrist. It is important for you to feel comfortable with them and that you are getting the best medical help possible. Take whatever medication is prescribed and ask the doctor to recommend a therapist or counselor for you to talk to. Please don't harm or cut yourself anymore. You can continue to talk to the people on this site. They will listen and offer support.

citalopram & depletion of serotonin:

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/mad-in-america/201011/new-rat-study-ssris-markedly-deplete-brain-serotonin

You should defin itely see a counselor and probably go to a hospital. The hospital helps in the short term but for longterm you need to get your feelings out with a counselor. Do not let your Mom let you face guilt. She has her issues and wants to put her issues onto you. If you take ur medication and go to a counselor you feel comfortable with in time it will clear up. Do not isolate. A lot of people do this,including myself. This is not good. Get out in the sunshine. It also helps