Yet another day of feeling like shit. Its crazy because I really dont have a reason to be upset but Ive been down here for so long its just normal now. I try my best to look for reasons to be happy but I just cant seem to find a reason to smile. I am very fortunate to have a friends and family that care and look out for me but I just feel like every day I fight to be happy or find some enjoyment. I am trying to remain positive and hopeful of the future and about God's grace but somedays I find it hard to believe. Ive been hurting for so long I almost dont know what its like to not be in pain. Ive been through counseling before and I always leave on a high only to fall back down. I cant seem to find a method to my madness and at this point I am all out of solutions. Again, I have really good friends and family, Im well respected, and have a great career and I dont know if its a matter of me being ungrateful but I just dont find joy in all aspects of life. I dont know what to do anymore. I guess this is just a cry for help.
Hello dear friends, Henry is my name, I am 54 years old, i lost my family in the earthquake that hit Indonesia in 2018, though it has not been easy for me but am ready to mingle
Wife has breast cancer so I have nowhere to go with my...stuff. I get headaches and dizzy and ringing in my ears alot lately. I am trying to spare my wife and kids my..stuff but I feel intense panic like I'm getting crushed from the inside and have at least one episode a day. Today is worse than usual.