IN fact it makes me want to kick some ass

I can relate to you on about all counts, yes, you definately have depression, and anger that comes with it...like you said, I get really pissed off at myself, as well as other people that I feel, do me wrong..having low self esteem comes with it as well, and you beat yourself up, because you feel, you cant change thins, or the people around you..you will never change the people around you, and you cant go around kicking peoples asses, because how you feel..trust me on this, I have kicked pleenty of asses, over the years, some deserved it, others did not..yeah, life isn't fair, and it does suck, but try to realize, there is some good, on this planet, and keep on keeping on..other than that, I have no advice, just to say, I know how you feel.

The angrier you get, the more you'll be slighted, passed over for positions, etc., because potential employers pick up on your anger, and would rather work with someone who is more pleasant than someone who may be more qualified but is angry as hell and will only piss off supervisors, co-workers and customers. In short, by being angry, you're only digging yourself into a deeper hole.

Channel the anger into something productive, like exercise, then try to see the funny in life. Yes, life isn't always fair, but if you look at it as ironic, maybe you'll be able to laugh about it. Then maybe you'll be more relaxed and pleasant. Then maybe good fortune will roll in your direction.

I totally agree with Koolman's comments (above). Anger may be justified, but it makes for more anger and more anger. Our anger doesn't hurt those we are angry at. It only hurts ourselves. It alienates people who otherwise would have helped us. People sense anger and they are wanting to get away. They label us cranks, difficult, even paranoid. So do as Koolman advises. See the funny and the positive in life. What you think about and the emotions you feel (positive or negative) will attract more of the same energy into your life. Stay angry and you could attract someone bigger than you who will kick YOUR ass!

I hate to say this, but it does sound like you would do well on the anger management site, where you can see how others handle their anger. Anger comes in many forms. Anger can also be depression turned inside out. The problem with doctors misdiagnosing bi-polar is that they give medications that are meant for people with bi-polar and can cause bad side effects for those who just have depression. Unfortunately, life is not fair, and it's getting less and less fair all the time. Change what you can, and if you can't, find a way to deal with the anger because being angry is not going to change the situation. It only hurts you. Hugs GB

I have anger and depression too.I think I am angry because I am depress.

I am angry and depressed to.

I don't know your personal situation, haven't read it, whatswrong19, but it sounds like you've had a lot of tough situations, a lot of bad hurt times.

Unfairness will piss anyone off. I'm considerably older than you and it makes me furious. Some co-workers at the office laughing their ass off, 3 of 'em congregating and shooting the shit for minutes and minutes, and I am busting my ass in an office doubling as a kitchen trying to help the clients, and they put me in charge of the clients on Medicare. & Medicare is very difficult to deal with when you are trying to settle a lawsuit !

I wish you the best.................

thanks for the comments, maybe I will join the anger management group. I have never hurt anyone physically though, not yet anyway.

But I get angry, and yeah that prob does aleinate me, but then again, like my explosive friend next door, it keeps the "can you do me a favor" folks out of your doorway and people tread lightly when they want to use you or mistreat you in some way, so in some ways, yeah it can be helpful, and that is sad, cause that is not what I want in my playing field, the ability to scare the hell out of people cause i"m angry.

My other fear is that one day I will hurt someone, and that I would enjoy it, that is my fear, that I will turn into a monster if I don't get a hold of this in the right way. Thanks

dysthymia or cyclothymia or lesser forms of the two, they can be what you are looking for. Anger is my problem as well, and they call that a manic episode. I have never had highs, just partied as a teenager. Only lows. I am considered bipolar. But, I feel I am more depressed and angry than anything else. I go off on people in public, I get arrested for DC. I have to pay a fine or sometimes I get jail. I feel like I cannot control any of this. Until, i found meditation, mindful thinking, compassion, and love. I am controlling myself better lately. I hope this helps. (((hugs)))

thanks again Jens Pos and restless, all of you, gramybear who always makes sense.

gramy, ever find you can make all the sense in the world to others but can't seem to make it work for yourself? I get that way,

You know though, today, I felt like I was on the edge of a cliff of my own sanity from the grasping of my own pains when suddenly, in my face is someone hurting much more than me, on the edge of an even nastier cliff, was just suddenly there, looking at me for help

It can change your course, but I don't think for one minute that justifies anyone's pain, not for one minute (This note to God himself) but makes me step back and think...

I want to hurt those who hurt me, kinda natural, but then you see something else, where someone is really on the edge of that cliff of sanity,

Well anyway, just saying, maybe I'm not as far gone as I thought, as I was able to stop thinking about myself for a minute and try, try to help that person, maybe I will try harder in the future.

Hey man
I understand youd like to have a name for what you have
but sometimes names are not important
weather youre diagnosed with depression or not
depression is a baggage of all kinds of negative things you carry with yourself and use during certain situations
as much as you use them they grow within and gets to a point that its impossible to believe that its possible to control yourself
just like you said , you cant control your anger
perhaps its not about controlling or dealing with it
but learning how to overcome it
because you can be able to control one , two times or even more but when you cant , it will strike with full force again

you let that anger develop in yourself
conciously or not
I know sometimes it gets to be scary
because I used to have a lot of anger myself
and there were times which I would stop and look at myself and the things I had done and get scared of how much of anger I had

you shouldnt feed your anger due to unfair things that happen out there with you or someone you really like , because its going to make you hate more and that will only bring you more down
I dont think youre completely frustrated because unfair things happen to you but also because your anger didnt solve it
and it never will

Think about it
and try to work on that
anger makes you weak over time
sadness is not the only element of depression
anger is part of it too

Clean up yourself man
and you will feel much better about yourself
and will feel much better to overcome any kind of obstacles out there , not with hate towards people but with the confidence to get your dreams done without bringing anyone down

Take care