So do you have a psychiatrist to follow up with after your inpatient stay? If not, you should. Say exactly what you said here, be honest. If that anxiety medication helped you, chances are they will put you back on it or something similar.

I do have a physiatrist, but my parents keep canceling it (I'm 15) they keep telling me "We don't want you on any meds. you used to be perfect without them (before all of this started) but now you're here." When I was in school my guidance counselor told my parents "She can't rely on meds forever. She has to learn to life without them" and ever since then they've been agreeing with her.

Your young and unfortunately teenagers like to party and abuse anxiety meds....that is working against you.

You have to make your parents hear you, talk to your Guidance Counselor very honestly, go to the Principal if the Counselor is making inappropriate comments about you being on meds your whole life, that is not her decision, nor is it her job to make those calls. She's not in your body and does not know what you're going through. If it gets too bad or drastic, take yourself to the ER for a safety healthcare check, when they call your parents in, have the Dr. or Nurse help explain how you're feeling and why you need both a Psychiatrist out patient and your medications. Sometimes if they don't listen you have to make them. You and your mental health are very important, the most important thing for you to focus on right now, you're doing your part, make them do theirs.

If they still don't listen, there is a Social Worker at the Hospital and its their job to help families make the right decisions together for care. Don't just drop this and get back to a place of harming yourself. This is not about letting friends and family down, its about You staying SAFE.

Hang in, you can do this,

Kat

I had to take meds when I was 15. Maybe it is something with hormonal changes, I have heard that birth control can help this, but your parents don't sound very open minded. Try to keep communicating with them what you are feeling.
Meds do not have to be forever, no. But if they can help you now then that is good. The right amount of counseling (and the right counselor, btw), can help guide you safely through this process. And you deserve the support of your family. Fight for yourself.

Thanks for the help, I'm going to try talking to my parents and physiatrist again, and hopefully they here me out and see what this is physically and mentally doing to me.

Just a tip, if you have trouble talking and making them hear you, write a letter and sit while they read it.