I went to see a doctor for my skin problems, i recently suffer from severe  acne  a that is  worsening recently,,  she was about to prescribe me a medicine called roocutane (isotretinoin)

The medicine is said to have side effects such as depression and suicidal feelings, which I already suffer from. I told the doctor and she now refuses to give it to me saying that it will make it worse. I think of insisting that i'd take it, I can't handle the acne and it's making me more insecure and depressed . Few months ago I had a totally clear face. But as my depression worsened it's affecting my face. People are pointing about it .

Btw, I had already taken it 8 years ago. I was depressed as well but situation wasn't as bad as now, I remember I used to self harm and have crying episode and my diary is full misery, but it has been always like this, only difference is that back then I didn't know that something called depression existed. I started having suicidal thoughts the year after which was a very stressful year, so l'm not sure if it's the med.