((hugs)), sorry you're hurting so much. What has you feeling like you want to cut right now? I know you're out of treatment but are you still seeing a therapist/dr?

I have missed a lot of school. My dad has always been hue on grades and even on the way home from the hospital he was already jumping on me about how I am going to fail and i'm not going to pass. He said he wouldn't say anything about my greades anymore but he lied. I can't handle his lies anymore. I don't see a therapist until wednesday.

Spalistic darling, be strong and hang on. You don't deserve the pain. Hang on until Wednesday, and talk to your therapist. Please remember you don't deserve pain. Have you tried punching something soft like a pillow or cushion? it can get your anger and pain out without hurting you :)

I used to hit my wall or door. Is it really a matter of me deserving the pain and hurt? Whether I deserve it or not it will always be there. I'm not sure I want to hang on anymore.

I'm sorry hun, I think your mental health is the most important thing right now. It sounds like your dad doesn't understand depression very well. Does he go to the therapist with you? Are there things that help you to feel relaxed and safe when you feel like self harming? I know it's different for everyone, but for me journaling (or writing down things you want to talk to your therapist about when you see her), a hot bath, calming music, talking to a friend, and my cat are things that help me to relax. Also sometimes exercise can be a good release. Do you have any crisis lines in your area you can call?

Your best bet might be to get together with a friend, get into public where you would hesitate to hurt yourself. Being with your friend might cheer you up too.
Tell your dad if you can, that the negativity doesn't really motivate you, but if he could encourage you about the homework situation, it might be helpful. When our parents tell us we're going to be failures, it's often a self-fulfilling prophecy.

My dad told me once that Depression is for weak people and that "little girls" dont't commit suicide. He acutlally laughed at me. My dad won't let me go any were with my friends once he found out I had been smoking and drinking and things like that. I am not aloud to go anywere any more.

I'm sorry that you're dad is treating you this way. He is completely wrong about depression, it's an illness that is not your fault. Does your therapist know that he says these things to you?

I lost control. I am back to cutting and burning. I hurt I cry I ran from my dad. I am with my mom now. I dont know how long I will be here. I hhope they wont take me rom her. I am really scared. I need some serios help. Please...