I tell ya what... I couldnt wish any harder than I do every night that I will go to sleep and god will bless me with not having to wake up...but every day I wake up anyway... I have been off meds for quite some time now.finally got approval again n waiting for pharmacy to get authoriaztion to fill...but for long time I have and am ..just laying in bed pretty much all day every day..crying off and on and wondering why I cant just be normal and how much more I can take.....
but I know that I have to keep going ..i have to keep fighting I see a lot of people some here and some in random other places that have fought this battle and with hard work they have beat the battle..whether its by being fixed all together or by like one individual who inspired me a few days ago from here ( wanderingvet)...by just learning to manage it and refuse to allow it to take over your life....people who hurt just as much as u and me are doing ok..and making it...
u can too. so can I...but u have to hold on..and really believe its possible...
if u think u might actually act on ur urges please call ur suicide hotline or go to a hospital.
the world wants u in it

At the moment their just thoughts and wishes I really wish I don't wake up .

I find the impulse passes...and if you can do something? ANYTHING? that will keep you busy, it'll help you ride it out.

We all get to troop down that tunnel one day.
Hang out a bit.
There's likely a less-drastic way out of the pain.

invisible im glad to hear they are just thoughts....but I also know how painful it is to have to live with those thoughts. im sorry :( hang in there...

Went through some suicide thoughts before Christmas. Really strong thoughts. Had to adjust meds and a job change to help some. But lately they have come back. Days where I really don't want to be here and be with my husband.

I go through these same feelings many many times. Sometimes I spend a lot of thought on how could I make this work and really get away from all this pain. I think the only reason that I am still alive is that God does not want me to die yet. But you get so tired. I hear all of you. Many times I hang on by a thread. But so far I have hung on.

I feel like a total waste of a life I'm absolutely nothing just a big fat ugly failure I'm so tired of workim
Ng all the time and getting no where at all.

I too want to see the end as well but I know it's not my time yet, no matter how suicidal I get, and I don't believe it's your time either. Try to find something that really occupies your mind and you find intriguing and exciting enough to keep you thinking good thoughts. If I can fight that demon, I know you can too. If you ever want to talk, please know I'm here to listen. Hugs GB

I sometimes feel the same. I just sit in bed and pray, "God please let me have a heart attack and die." But I wake up, go to school, hang out with friends, and live my life. Just think of the people out there who are just like you, and remind yourself that they need somebody. It will help.

I have never wanted to be here I have always wanted to be on the other side and in the last cupel of years I have found my self wanting to be here ...I want to watch my grandchildren grow up ......millions of people wonder about the other side ......I know ware I am going and it is through my experiences that I have come as roses this and many other facts.....we need to finish our lives here before we continues on to the next ......it is very important .....I can't tell you just how important it is .....we are in school ......we are here to learn to experience to help others do the same and most of all to learn to love unconditionally...I don't expect you to believe me but maybe you can think about it .......take care god bless

Im sorry your feeling this way. I feel like this too at times and pray the lord to take me in my sleep so I don't have to wake another day to this pain. I know that is the depression talking and I know I shouldn't say or think like that. I somehow keep pressing on even when I feel my family and everyone else is against me or look down on me for having an illness you cant see. It is a real illness and no one understands it unless they have it. Please try your best and keep pushing no matter what don't let it win. god bless you.

I have those thoughts pretty much daily for the past 8 years except when I am stable. Keep being strong. I believe that things will get better for us. There are always new meds/treatments coming out to try.