i woke up this morning feeling good about myself. i looked in the mirror and for the first time in a long time, i didn't feel bad about my body. Then, my mother decided to take away my car just because she could. She said the only way to get it back was to apologize. I apologized even though i didnt know what i was sorry for. Later, she yelled at me because the cat peed on her coat. She told me it was my fault and that she was going to take away my car because of it. She then followed me downstairs and proceeded to yell at me. im now in my room crying my eyes out and trying not to cut. i am almost a month free and i would be proud of that but before that, i was 6 months free and my mom told me that that wasn't that long. Im so scared and tired right now and i dont know what to do. almost everyone at my school hates me and im so sick of the bullying and not having anyone to talk to. idk what to do anymore. im not sure how much longer i can keep going.