I totally understand. I remember having a anxiety attack when my therapist went on vacation. I was seeing her twice a week at the time. I now see her once a month. Hang in there and things will get better.

use this site for support whilst your therapist is away. Try to be strong and know that anyone can feel the same way as you when in therapy.

Hang in there. This will be a good chance to prove to yourself you can do it.
It's really between you and your Higher Power. Your therapist should not become your higher power.
Dig deep you are probably stronger than you give yourself credit for. We usually are.

You will be okay. The way I see it is, the sun will come up tomorrow-always, so take a deep breath and relax

My therapist has a habit of being unavailable when a crisis hits for me. Its frustrating. But its an opportunity for growth. I take my time to think about what I am feeling, process it, and decide how to proceed.

Best of luck to you during this time. Be kind to yourself!

When I was in therapy, I would get really anxious when my therapist would give me a "heads up" that she was going on vacation. I would ask her, "Is there someone I can call, if I'm in a crisis or having a problem?" Because she worked in a group practice, one of her colleagues would be "on-call" in her stead. This was their standard practice. This was reassuring and usually made me feel safe and not abandoned to the wolves... Maybe I spoke with 1 of the colleagues when I was in a really dark place, spiraling out. I don't recall. But it didn't matter. What mattered was that she had a back up plan and made it accessible to me. Did your therapist give you any phone numbers or anyone to contact if you were struggling while she was away?

Today, my best friend left on a 2 week trip and is incommunicado, as he is out of the country. We usually speak for over an hour every day. I always go into a bit of a downward slide & feel anxious over his leaving (even though he tells me many months in advance) ... fortunately I do not have panic attacks about it. I think it's because I know he's gotta come back to his job and his life here. He is not abandoning me. But he's very clear that he needs to "Unplug." And I don't blame him. I know I can be exhaustingly needy. And he has a job that's very demanding (he works 12 -14 hr days, with an hourly commute each way). I am happy for him that he can afford these trips. And just a tad envious that I can't go myself ;-)

As it is, he lives 14 hours away (we only see each other at Christmas for a few days). But, I have an unhealthy dependence on this 1 person. And I realize, by being here, that I am dealing with an Addiction of sorts.

So, while he is away, I'm going to detox. I have no choice as I can't reach him anyway. I'm going to get busy, taking care of things around here, which needed doing anyway. I'm going to reshift my focus and deal with all these piles of papers and clutter. Just like I did when I quit smoking.

This is a healthy way to distract myself and work out any frustrations that I experience throughout the day. Usually I stockpile them and then unload/vent to him ... well, now I have to find another way, perhaps a healthier way, to deal with the daily niggling things that irritate me or upset me. I hate that I do this to him, anyway. i've really gotta learn how to be a better friend.

Housecleaning. Who knew it can be so therapeutic? (Of course, we'll see what tomorrow brings when I wake up... I wonder if the vacuum will recognize me...) ... but it's a worthy goal :D

Little did you know, your post here is helping me tremendously. I hope you find ways to cope, too...

Thanks!