I love this man very much, I want nothing more than to help him and be with him. We are both codependant as we were both married for 12 - 15 yrs and met eachother shortly after our seperation from our spouses. Bot are afraid to be alone it seems. Because of what we have been through the last 2.5 years with his drug addiction and my depression its like we began sitting around doing absolutely nothing. He is injured, not working and i work full time. When I am at work i would always worry that he woould be gone before I got home. Well one day finally game and he was on a binge, this is not the first time. He binges every few months looses everything he has managed to rebuild. Then when scared and broke he puts himself in the phsych ward to clean himself up. He has gone into a rehab centre in tha past but did not complete the program for others reasons that were out of his control. We tried to keep open communication but we failed and both spiralled down into a depression and new what was coiming but couldn't or weren't trying hard enough to fix it I guess. He is in the hospital now don't know where he is going aafter, can't come home as he has made it unsafe to be in my part of the city. Do dealers really kill people or hurt people over bad debts? I want to have a life with him but am wondering if I am just consumed by him and that we are just wasting our time. He wants to be with me and says he loves me but his addiction is strong when he gets depressed. He says that I will never understand and that I shouldn't try? I can'\t stop thinking about him he consumes my mind. Don't know what to do?
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