Hello all. I'm new to this sort of thing. I don't have anywhere else to turn. I was in a car accident in 2008 and have been dealing with chronic full body pain since then. I am only 31 and have 3 children. Some days I can't even walk let alone clean or work. Over the years I have visited numerous types of doctors, had MRIs, X-rays, and all that. The doctors act like they don't care and try to shove some type of pill down my throat. They never work. I have never gotten a definitive diagnosis and it's driving me crazy. The rheumatologist I saw the other day told me that all sighs point to fibromyalgia but he wants to make sure it's not lupus or rheumatoid arthritis so he took 12 vials of blood from me. I will hopefully get the results this coming week.
I have been with my children's father for almost 11 years. I love him so much and I know he loves me. There's just this one problem: he's always calling me lazy and asking why certain things around the house aren't done. He knows what I go through. He says he understands but still yells at me when he comes home from work. I do what I can when I can do it but, I have to admit, it's not often. I'm tired all the time. I get up at 6:30 to get my kids ready for school and by 10 I feel like I need a nap. Our house is not DIRTY, but we do have 3 kids so it just needs some upkeep. It makes me so depressed. Depressed because I can't be the woman he wants and needs me to be. Depressed because I physically can't work to help with the bills. Depressed because any time I need something, I have to ask him to buy it for me. Depressed because I can't get approved for social security because I haven't been diagnosed with anything. I'm just DEPRESSED. Anyone who knows me knows that I always have a smile on my face. When I go to the doctor I have a smile on my face. I guess I'm good at hiding my pain because nobody knows what I've been going through. Has anyone been in this situation before?
It went pretty well. She asked what I've been working on with other doc, what I would like to work on in the future. I told her some things my current t does that I would like from new t. I explained a little about my family, addressed part of my safety plan. I see my current therapist two more times then she is gone. I will be sad about that. new t says probably all of June will be sessions on...
I have been diagnosed BPD, PTSD, Newly Diagnosed DID and Bipolar. I am not sure what is what having all the letters of the alphabet in my diagnosis. What should I expect and any tips I should be given to help? I have downloaded a few books on tape. Bipolar seems to run in the family. Thank you!