welcome I don't think I have met you before...I am sorry your hurts are so bad right now....I have no clue why all the bones hurt other than arthritis but that does not seem to fit either....anyway others here might be helpful more so than me...but the end is not ours to name but GOD;s to take us away from our pains....hugs bill

thanks... you might know my old account, "hopefullyanon" (it was a stupid name and i got tired of it)... ive been in the group for years

but i dont say much cause i try not to dwell on the pain... and i just dont have any advice for others on this topic... dealing with the pain has been a constant challenge for me and ive just never been any good at it

the only thing i know to do is distract myself from it but thats just not working anymore

youre right... its not my choice... and im doing my best to remember that... but i just cant take the pain anymore... something has to happen... anything... i just cant do it anymore

(((( hugs)))
I can so much relate to this pain - the weather seems to set off my fracture pain in every spot it was broken - my jaw, tib/fib, and the knees where a took a hit when i got thrown off my motorcycle.
I am so sorry that it hurts!!!

thanks

im sorry you hurt too :(

*hugs*

I have injuries all over, and I find that when one thing starts to hurt, and the weather is just right, and my stress levels are up... slowly but surely everything starts to hurt. And yeah, it is like every bone in my body is sending out rapid fire pain signals.

If you tell a doctor this, they slap you with a FibroMaligia (sorry, spelled wrong) diagnosis. But I know that I don't have muscle pain, it is bone pain. I find that it is stress and pushing myself too hard that brings this on.

My current happy place for pain is using my OTC TENS unit from IcyHot... it is wonderful!!! Hubby and I trade off using all day long.

The other thing I find that helps is a hot bath with Epsom Salts. Make the bath just as hot as you can take it and melt...

hugs and loves
yaldim and critters

well, i cant afford a tens unit (tho i seirously doubt MORE nerve stimulation is what i need anyway)... heck, i cant even afford the $1 co-pay at the dr

and if stress is whats gonna bring it on then im just screwed cause theres nothing but neverending stress in my future... specially if stress is gonna do this to me

i give up

Vallonzek, welcome. I hope you don't give up! This is a difficult journey. Chronic pain is insanely difficult. None of us ever saw this coming and had no idea the path we were going to travel. I quit asking why years ago. Well, sometimes, I slip back and ask. Now, I hang around managing the pain and find a lot of encouragement from the people here. There is something about interacting with people who understand and are nonjudgmental. Do you have supportive people that understand, and you feel comfortable talking with them? Do you have any animals that depend on you? Are your doctors supportive? It doesn't sound like they are effectively treating your pain. I had to search for a LONG time before I found a doctor that listened and helped me.
Glad you are here, but sorry that you need to be. Keep coming back, it is helpful.

I hope you have a peaceful, relaxing and low pain evening.

the only 'why' i keep asking is 'why is it so immoral to do what it takes to end the pain?' and 'why do people think its so great that they can keep me (and others) alive for so many pain filled years?' seems rather backwards to me

no, none of my family or friends has any idea how to react to me when the pain gets really bad... and to be honest, im glad they dont have a clue... i wouldnt wish this on anyone

they took away my dr when they forced this craptastic insurance on me... but none of them have ever given a damn... when i asked the dr who was supposed to put my arm back together what i should do about the pain that he said id be in for the rest of my life, he said, and i quote, "get used to it", right before he walked away, while i was still trying to ask him questions...

id really love to have a cat, but, i cant work, and cant get on disability, so i cant afford my own place or a real pet... i did get some fish recently... i saw i was about to go broke so i spent a few $$ to at least have some reason to wake up every morning... but its just not enough

i dont see any other recourse but to give up

but unfortunately, giving up just doesnt help

so yay for another 40-50 years of pure hell!

Very sorry you're in so much pain! Do you have a pain clinic you use? There are times when there is nothing but pain-but mentally we have to take over and LIVE-do what we want to do no matter the pain-no matter what..because life is too precious to waste ..life is too short not to find a way to live :)

no, no pain clinic... i got a number for one but im out of money and that means im out of gas and i cant walk through the house, let alone to a clinic that'll just laugh at me

glad you can function through your pain, but, oh well

im gonna make things easy and stop watching this

thakns for the kind words all, i hope you all have great days

So so sorry. Us living with chronic pain there is no time off it really can fuck with your head and want an end to suffering. Unfortantly there is no good way to end the pain. I get those horrific thoughts that at times don't seem so horrific for me and only me. I myself have three children two grown somewhat about to be 22 and 24 and I have a young 12 year old. I want my babies to have me around and I can't wait for grandchildren. It's the part of me that keeps me going.
I hope you get some relief soon.

sometimes i feel like a big baby... i read about people in here who have horrible pain and i keep thinking mine isnt as bad and it makes me feel like crap

but i try to keep in mind that pain is pain and its not fun for anyone

im sorry for being so dispondant yesterday with this thread... i dunno how much better im doing today, but i think its a little bit at least

pain level is still a solid 7 or 8 tho... maybe 9 at times

Vallonzek..try not to beat yourself up for feeling so down and angry, we all go through these stages. Its a clich but sometimes all you can do is take things hour by hour and wait for another painful day to be over and start again tomorrow. I hope your feeling a little better today.

seems like im getting more and more of those days as time goes on... its like my resistance to it is falling fast

*sigh*

thank you all for all your kind words

*hugs all around*

Lots of hugs!!!!

Pain drags us all down sometimes. I have days I can't get enough umph going to even talk to my hubby - I want to just curl up and pretend life does not exist! Vent and rant all you need to! We are here for you.

FYI - when you can, the TENS unit I was talking about is $35. Trust me, I understand being broke!!! I have been going back to college for the last five years and hubby has been out of work for almost three... we are living on charity.

hugs

yadlim who has to walk the dogs