Thank you for all of this pain that never leaves my body. Thank you so so much for helping me find this forum and friends on DS, and all of the other wonderful people doing their "Time" in "Hell on Earth" with me! I am considering my "Time" as a full payment for my castle and automatic gate opener to Heaven! In Jesus Name I Pray. Thank you! Amen. I am a True Believer in God and Jesus Christ! They are the only reason I have not killed myself! Ted
Had my first surgery today for SCC on my arm, the Derm thought it was Psoriasis, so it was growing a while. SCC can be deadly. The incision was 2 1/2" long, and lots of stitches, some for the muscle, that disolve. It is starting to hurt pretty bad, with the local wearing off...Next surgery is Tuesday, and follow up Wednesday, it is a form of MOHS, she said they call it SLOMOHS... They test it...
What does one do when the pain is so bad that tears flow? It's been 13 years. I'm a mess. New doctor Wednesday. Wish me well. Thank you.
I recently was told that I was no longer being prescribed my anxiety medication, but without it I feel as if I'm going to relapse into cutting again along with restricting my food to be in control again. I don't understand why this is happening. Even when I'm feeling fine and on top of the world, my anxiety kicks in and causes me to want to hurt myself or end it all.
I was recently discharged from inpatient and everything was going great until they didn't prescribe my one anxiety med. I quickly began to fall apart, but I haven't gone back to self harming and I hope I don't because then my family and friends will all be disappointed in me once again. Without this med, my anxiety has increased and so has my depression. I just don't know what to do here, I've...