Aches..not a CES...:-)

Are you on steroids? Those make one cranky at times.

I think pain makes people short tempered.
You should be safe here so I hope you are not being attacked for expressing these feeling in a SUPPORT group!

HEHHE, I was just thinking in my head "what the heck is CES?" Thanks for the clarification JC.

YES, YES, YES! I get that way too. Especially when my pain is high enough to make me bed ridden and miserable but, not high enough to make me where I can't speak or think.

When I get to that place when I can't speak or think...all I do is wait to die, which I am sure is going to happen any second during those times.

We are allowed to be B****Y my friend... CP'ers or not. It is a human condition. As long as you recognize it, I don't think you have to fear becoming that person.

Don't be so hard on yourself JC. HUGS

No my dear JC, you most definitely are not the only one. You are just the first to admit it. I will admit it myself. I get the same way. I get irritable with my family, especially my mother, because she has some of the same illnesses that I have. And she complains verbally alot, but physically her actions speak clearly something else. I get frustrated when she says I don't do enough or when I speak up about how I am feeling I get a snotty response from her. Like I am the enemy country and should not be heard from. If she were so sick this weekend, then how did she make a pan of brownies, with icing, from scratch? And I am supposed to have sympathy for her? And I can have no sympathy for myself.

So, yeah, I get bitchy. But like you, I try to leave it off the board. Every once in a great while I will talk about how I am really doing, which is not good at all, and am in need of some support. My dad is the only one who truly supports and understands me at home and he is out of town right now. But when my older brother and sil come over and "complain" I have those thoughts too JC. Except I want to punch them in their lying, back stabbing faces.

So yeah, I definitely get bitchy. And no you are not alone!!

Gentlest of hugs,
Jenna

I hear you! My tongue some times feels like it is bleedig from biting it.

Today I experienced what I would call the ultimate in lack of understanding. Don't mean to take over your post JC. I'm sick from people not understanding. I don't have the energy to explain anymore. The miss conceptions are rampant. Main at a 9, I said I could not speak, iwas pushed, I aid out loud I'd rather dike than live like this in frustration. Within hours my eldest son wanted to stage an intervention .....can you believe that? My mother had him convinced I'm drug affected, mentally ill due to my pain. The woman is a narcissistic personality who can't comprehend my pain or my surgeries. I'm gutted simply gutted she has influenced my eldest son.

My husband has put them in there place, but I'm reeling in disgust. I have a professional team of the highest caliber caring for me. I have not spoken to her in two years since I was sexually assaulted.

Honestly I'm feeling more than bitchy. I'm enraged. So of course my pain levels are up.

Give me strenghth to forgive their ignorance .I'm a mess x

Oh..no one but me is on my case..:-)

And..yep..I'm on prednisone..

Super...too true about can't be bitchy when pain is too high..
Ha! ... guess if I look at it that way..I could be greatful to still have the ability to be bitchy..:-) :-) :-)

( I know there are better..nicer words..but..not feeling very clever)

Hugs

My spelling is all wrong, I'm crying. Sorry. Dike should be die.
Main is pain etc. Sorry can't see for crying please bare with me x

Jenna..
Thanks for being honest..:-)

Sorry..you both must have posted while I was spacing out doing mine..

Shoes...no worries on the thread, bud..
Sounds like you're in a boatload of yuck.
Thank God your husband " gets" it, Shoes...we're damned lucky in that respect....sorry about the rest of the family..

Shoot...haven't we all said we'd rather die when pushing pain where you can't speak?
( it's why my husband keeps guns and meds locked up..it eases his mind...'cause he's seen me begging to die).
Sorry you're hurting so horribly Shoes....hugs....jc

hi gang, and JC bitchy is too mild of a word sometimes lol.. i am totally disgusted by the fact that my life will be a constant struggle from here on out.. well, actually my life has been a struggle, but dealing with cp makes things ten times worse.. i try and not let my pain dictate how i will feel, and how i interact with others, but some days are down right tough to get thru..i take it out on my closest of kin..
Sometimes i even feel like i am in the right, because of my pain, and i use that as an excuse to feel bad, and get lippy.. just ask my hubby... i call it my "mood" so to speak, but i know the underlying reasons for my bitterness..
ok, ive gone on a bit too much, so ill just say "have a great day", and your never alone JC.. were always with you in heart...
~stinke~

Damn, Shoes..I was going to say don't cry..that's dumb..go ahead and cry...God knows you're entitled.
Wish I could give ya a real hug...

Thanks, Stinke..ha!.. haven't heard the " Lippy" expression since my parents used to say " don't get Lippy"... but...I'm with ya..I have my " Lippy" moments...and do often excuse them with my pain.


Sorry this thread is a bit confusing..I was answering Geekies and Super at first...then Jenna and Shoes..
Now Stinke..

I love how we all share the same feelings..
Of course..I wish it wasn't 'cause of pain for any of us..
But..it does somehow help to be understood..and to be understanding.

Hugs

Oh thank god that it is not happening here. I have friends who are celiac and a new person came and literally attack a celiac who has been doing it for many years. I am glad this is a safere group.

I go hide when i hurt too much. Maybe that is coward. But no one sees me get angry that way. Maybe it is time for them to help me more.

I know what you mean about wanting to die when it hurts too much. Staging and intervention sounds so narcassitic. Your son is most likely just confused. Do you sit with him and explain the realities? Perhaps a good book on how to recognize narccissistic personalities so he is not confused by g-mom or any other narc's in the world.

Thaanks for posting this hancam

I think hiding is not a bad technique..I've done it when I know I won't bite my tongue.

jc, you called me out once again. Guilty as charged (LOL!). When my pain gets unmanageable with no end in sight, I get cranky. I try to keep it to myself but not always successful.

I'm grateful to come to a place where I can admit the worst of me and still feel accepted.

JC., I read a lot more than post. Just hurts way too much. I stopped for awhile because it seemed like all were about how to be happy despite pain and i did not want to be a downere. So glad that you post these and make me feel less alone.