The most important one to forgive...is... yourself. The blame, the tormenting, it's not yours, it's on the person(s) who did everything to you.
A child can NOT ask for it, or fight off, or any thing else you may have been telling yourself...
they probably blamed you for why you got abused... it's their way of not dealing with, and justifying what they were doing..
you are not in denial, that's on them too!

Now the daily torments.
Your brain will only release the info that it knows won't hurt you... it wants to heal too.
I totally forgot about my abuse, till one day almost everything came flooding back.
Except one very important detail... who it was.. I have no idea who abused me as a young child, I know who did when I was a teenager, just not the younger one...

I've gotten to the point where I almost don't care, I don't need that info to heal.

Forgiving myself has been the hardest of all... because I see my faults, and everything that rolls with it...

Hang in there, be kind to yourself, and always remember...
You are never really alone in any of this.. we do understand..

Thanks, your words were very uplifting. In the present I do not feel like I blame myself. I used to blame myself a lot when I was younger. I thought that I have overcome that aspect of child abuse. With that being said, reading your response that the abuse was not my fault still affected me and it felt really good to read. I do have a lot of guilt. It's hard to explain without knowing all of the story. I kept mine a secret for many years and then everything changed. This change is what I feel guilty about. The circumstances that unfolded when the secret was no more. Sometimes, I think maybe it would of been easier to have kept it all a secret. In my heart I know that it was the best thing I ever did! It's just the healing process has been difficult. I often try not to talk about it all that much but it boils over. I'm so rambling again. It's kind of amazing to get some of this off of my chest. I don't want to remember abuse that I have forgotten. I came upon an unwanted memory twice. One was remembering abuse from someone else. The second, my husband and I are were fooling around one night and I started to cry and I felt the physical part of it for the first time again. I couldn't control my crying, I tried because I didn't want to freak my husband out but I couldn't fight it. I sobbed for a while that night. It wasn't just the abuse that came flushing back or the guilt but it was me, I felt like me when I was a little girl and it was scary and sad all at the same time. I am still questioning every relationship I have ever had and have come to realize that I have issues with being intimate. I never knew that being in a meaningful relationship would throw a wrench into my progress. I never knew that I had any more memories. I rambled again. I guess this is the reason why I found my way here. Thank you for listening to me. I doubt any of it makes sense, I have just been needing to talk.
Thanks. You are never alone in any of this either. One of my favorite quotes is from the movie "Almost Famous" and Dennis Hope (Jimmy Fallon), "I didn't invent the rainy day, man. I just own the best umbrella." I try to live by this when I am not so blue. Goodnight

If the person/s is dead,too dangerous to confront,or their going through their own healing journey than a good method to use is chair therapy. This involves getting a chair for yourself and positioning it the way you want it. Then get a picture of the one you want to confront,get another chair,and position it in front of yours. After getting the chair,place the picture on it,and visualize the person in your head.If the picture is too small tape it to the back of the chair by rolling up some tape,sticking it to the back of the picture,and sticking the picture at eye level. Then close your eyes and visualize this person in your mind. Don't open your eyes till you have this person firmly visualized! When you do look at the chair across from you picture them sitting there. Now you can do this confrontation 1 of 2 ways either,before ALL of this,you write that person a long letter and now you just read it out loud to that person or you can wing it. If you decide on the letter option burn it afterwards. When doing this, or ANY type of confrontation, confront the one who hurt you the least first! It's safer and healthier for you even if you use the chair therapy. You could do further damage to yourself mentally and emotionally and/or you could set yourself right back at square one in your recovery if you don't!!
Hugs and best to you