Feeling nothing but the residue of the hurt and anger of my circumstance - nothing else.
I've sort of hit a rock bottom of sorts, and don't see the way up.
Still crying, still missing him, still wishing for a form of justice - a pay back.
I will never understand why I'm here, why he was able to do this to me.
Why did I love him so strong but never received that kind of love in return - although I didn't realize that when I was in it.
Why did he lie to me? Why does he have to effect me the way he does without doing anything?
Just the thought of him, the memory of him, the pain from him.
I'm tired of having to be strong and function while carrying this. I don't want to be here anymore.
What do you say to someone who has lost all hope?
do you think it’s possible to be able to trust someone again after they cheated on you or is it not worth trying to fix it and to walk away?
I am always trying to escape to a secluded beach or cabin. . . far away from everyone. just me, my toys, maybe the dog and an occasional visitor. I have rethunk that equation. In one of my posts, someone mentioned a sybian. Naturally, me being deprived and curious, I had No clue. So I looked it up. :)I do thin I would LOVE to retire sooner than later to an isolated beach (can't do a...