I'll try to keep this short, but thats kind of hard for me, so, sorry if I don't. Anyways, I have been married for 15yrs. now. I have been highly unhappy for atleast the last 5. Everyday, I try to tell myself, it will get better. I have become so resentful of this man. One major reason is because of his complete lack of even noticing how unhappy I am. And the very few times I have had the nerve to try to talk to him about my unhappyness, it always turns out bad. He never hears what I'm trying to tell him, so nothing ever changes. One major hurdle for me, is that  am very isolated, not by choice, but because of my physical disabilites. I suffer from extreeme chroninc pain disorder, fibromyalgia, and degenerative disc disorder. And on the days he is home (he's a train driver, so he's rarely home), he doesn't seem to care to help me. It's like (at least this is how i take it), this is my day off, so I am gonna do me, she'll be fine, she's fine when I'm gone. I dont know if thats what he really thinks, but thats how I take his ignoring me most of the day. He's gone for 2 days, comes home, sleeps, wakes up, then sits infront of his computer litteraly all damn day. I so lonley.It's like, ok, you're gone all the time, and when you're home, & instead of spending time with you're family (we have 2 boys), you sit infront of your computer all fing day! I can only take so much more of this. I am fuming inside right now (if you cant tell!) I know for a fact that if I could financially take care of me and my boys, I'd be gone by now, but I can't, so I'm stuck being miserable. It's not fair. I'm so Lonley, so depressed, anxious. I don't even have the guts to tell him all this though, because A. he'll just not get it and B. I'll still be stuck here, only now he knows all the hard feeling that I'm harboring. I just don't know what to do. I wish I had the balls to just pack up and run away!