Yeah, I need to hear more about throwing pottery.

I'll add too that I suspect I have an addictive personality. Even when I was doing something healthy, it turned into an obsession. When I worked out I was in the gym 2-3 hours a day 6 days a week, at one point even getting a little hypodermic assistance.


Addictive personality....something I'll be discussing with Dr. Melfi today (my therapist looks just like her)

these days I just work out and paint

cool, my bestfriend's a Gemini, your birthday's coming up soon ;)

if your evil twin had a voice what would it be saying to you about the things you'd rather be doing?

Are you an alcoholic?

Are you a binge eater?

Do you take drugs?

Do you sleep with anyone just for the hell of it?

I dont really think you are exhibiting unhealthy behaviors that most here would recognize as a standard of unhealthy behavior. I think you are more stressed because your work is not allowing you to have the time to focus on what you would rather be focusing on, and with your relationship situation, I think you are highly stressed more than anything.

I think you just need a fucking vacation man.

Rman - I hear you buddy...I hear you it's who I am as well....but again I made a conscious decision to focus on ME. Have to focus on yourself here...let this be the one time in your life to be "selfish". If it means leaving one night a week or every other week early from work to do something for you if you can...do it.

yea- I guess I would party a lot more than I should in college to hide from pain... I'm better now, though

well...

yes walls........hard to get past those things....keep running my head right into them......perhaps I need to stop looking at the floor as I'm walking.............
Beer.....yes.
Distractions......yes.
Eating too little........yes.

I appreciate all the advice here people...seriously. I'm not crying or anything, as I'm not one to complain, but it is nice to know that there are people out here that I can count on for REAL advice. This is the good side of DS...

well what dresden?

Thanks, Jaken...I had to just throw out there that I'm manly and macho and shit...

Rman, for anyone without children, I would say, go down the road, and come back when ya come back.

However, you have other responsibilities to children who depend on you. In that genre, I don't think I would be engaging in unhealthy activities to comp for pain.

did someone say macho? Is that old spice I smell in the air?

You're a gemini?

That explains everything!

There's another personality genetically embedded in you, that just dying to get out.