I appreciate everyone's continued support, I really do!
I am debating taking (most) my exes family off my Facebook. For two reasons, one we don't talk anyways. Especially since our last break up, I was ostracized from most of them. Two, I really don't want to have to look at postings of the child my ex had with another woman. I know that sounds shitty, but it is what it is. I do have love for his family and hope they are well, but I'm beginning to feel this is going to be a necessary evil.
I do have relationships with couple of his family members which I could unfollow if needed.
My longtime friend whom he has the child with. Will prolly be the most difficult one. We were two peas in a pod for years. Yea, there was distance between us because life happens. I do care about her and her kids; even the child she has with my now ex. I should hate her but I don't. I should want to kill her, but I don't. I do feel deeply betrayed by her. I wouldn't have slept with her ex, imo I think that goes against girl code.
I'm so conflicted, but thanks again for letting me vent ❤
Just an update on how I'm doing. I just feel like a complete basket case. I'm not liking myself these days. I think its from past abandonment trauma and from my boyfriend cheating. Im just an insecure mess that needs constant validation from everyone. Im not liking myself so much lately and I constantly feel people are going to dislike me for complaining all the time. In general I worry...