SO i had all I could on may the 10, 2019, and broke up with her in the 13th. Yes by phone due to living 45 miles apart.
She is a divorcee, of two and a half years. Supposely he was abusive. They have a kid. I came into the picture 6 months after the divorce. after 6 months we became a couple, we were both seeing other people before hand. I cut everyone off all my other FWBs.
5 months in he gets hurt goes to the ER, she goes to him... the ER is in my town, not hers she didnt see me at all that day. We fight about it the next day. I stasted if she wants to take care of him then we needed to end. He spend thanksgiving and Xmas with her family. January we came back from a date and he was watching the baby. She told me to leave and wait until he left...i drove home, we fought and then broke up in Febuary. Later she tells me she was with another guy the night we broke up. He learns he has a terminal kidney disease. Still smokes and drinks to this day. 5/2019
She came back asking for me to stay with her to be FWB... mistake... maybe.
She dates around, as do I. we get serious again in august 2018, telling everyone...
The Ex shows up for her mothers birthday party bringing the gaint birthday cake, they pal around alot that night...
The Ex has thankgiving with her family... i show up just in time for dinner... but have to sit on the oppisite side of the table.
The EX has XMas with her family. i show up in time for dinner, and they sit next to each other.
During the months that follow:
He spends easter with us at her parents house.
He is invited to her mothers day cook out, only family was there.
when he is at her house he eats dinner with her, bringing it, or she cooks it. i ask about it she lies.
He showers there, does laundry there. i ask about it she lies.
He watchs games there. i ask about it she lies.
The relationship hits a wall. She lets him stay over and lies about it. She calls and texts him i ask about it she lies.
We fight about it she comes clean I learn he supposely gave her a STD while they were married, or the other guy did....
i learn she has been giving him money, meeting him for dinners, letting him hang out at her work. Doing medical paperwork for him, running him around town. Having family get togethers at her sistes and parents with him there and not me.
I break it out with her, she cries, begs, pleads, with me to talk it out.... calls, text, emails, i do not respond.
She shows up at my place on my birthday only because she was in town with her dad. Wants to talk, hug and kiss it out.... i shut the door and walked away.
she continues to email me how she is hurting. i continue to add emails to block.
she continues to call. i continue to block new numbers.
Last voice mail 2 weeks ago begs me to talk to her adn work it out, she is hurting... i block the new number and ad att call protect to my phone. no VMs allowed by blocked calls.
Yes i still hurt and still yell and scream in my head at her for the lies... Yes my heart still aches for love.
But i am trying to stay strong and heal myself from this all.
Its only been 6 weeks... yes when i look at other women i still feel like i am cheating... i know i am still weak for her... or the feeling of her.
I go out into public a much as possible, to help the healing process.
The things that sucks is my EX and her family are really close to my family.
So struggling w anxiety and panic for prob 20 years. I havent really had a full blown panic attack in a long long while until today. Just out of nowhere all the symptoms starte . Dizzy then out of it feeling, confused, dry mouth heart racing. The whole nine. I started just trying to calm.myself down by reassuring myself it is going to pass and for the first time I just came clear out to my bf...
do they ever go away? I saw a Facebook meme that I took very personally. My first serious boyfriend crushed me nearly beyond repair with his words. He made me feel unimportant and unworthy. That breakup changed me in the worst way. I don’t want him back, I do miss him sometimes and I miss the feeling of being head over heels in love. But I will never give that much of myself to another man...