My post is the really long post! feel free to read, any help appreciated! ... Bless ye, i feel the same, im 35 weeks pregnant and ive lost 10lbs in weight through stress. I cant believe this has happened to me, hes left me wanting to cut all ties, i think because i caught on to the fact he was trying to control and emotionally abuse me, maybe even have an affair, he couldnt control me as i was on his case like a true detective so he left and blamed it all on my anxiety..anyway like you ive begged and begged him to try even though my head knows that hes only going to hurt me. i was prepared to get myself refered to mental health to make him believe i agreed with him in order to get him back. I love him so so much and he knows this.. its cruel apparently he needed space too, I wish i could tell u he wasnt good for you and ot to beg him, but i know fine well if he wants to talk to me, im too weak in my current state to say no, id go back like a shot! because i only seem to remember the good times and good they were.. i truly believed i was this princess to him.. :( poor you i feel all your pain, it hurts like a B$£"!"£ , love and hugs xx

There is a great physical and emotional abuse forum
On DS. I know they advocate abuse trauma therapist
And using womens aid and domestic violence shelters
For support. There are a lot of resources out there for
Helping with the transitioning of coming off of abuse.
HUGS

Once a woman beater, always a woman beater. You have better end this. He will get mad again sometime in the future and you will be the recipient of his rage. This is not good. I have seen this scenario play out many times when I was a biker. Find a man who will love you and cherish you and not use you for his punching bag. Life is too short to live like this and, in my opinion, if you let this man back into your life, you will be walking on egg shells, worried what you might do or say they will set him off. You deserve better than this and no woman, I repeat, NO WOMAN, should have to be a punching bag for any man. I hope the best for you.

Be glad that you have found thieving with only a year invested in the relationship. Find a therapist to support you and get him out of your life. You deserve a man that is supportive, living and kind.

Whoops.! Found out about him with only a year. Invested.

I am so grateful for all the replies I can't believe I put up with all of this the last year he started with insults verbal abuse putting me down then when I said something about it he claimed I was too sensitive and needed to learn to take a joke. Telling someone they are too fat for them when I'm not fat Telling me my breasts were too big that I needed a reduction etc. them is started with pushing he spit on me threw a phone at me this last time it was a super hard slap and then punches to my head Arms and legs. I still can't wrap my head around why if he loves me he would do such a thing to me. It hurts me so deeply. I feel like complete utter shit. I just want to be happy again!

This is the way it always starts. First it is the insults, then it goes to name calling, then it escalates to physical actions. If a man truly loves you, he would never spit on you, throw things at you, slap your face or punch you. He is a control freak by telling you that you are fat, that your breasts are too big, He is degrading you so you will be submissive to him. No one loves someone and treats them like he treats you. Wake up lady. There is a better live than this.