you ever get creative when you feel that way?

at times in my life i have struggled with depression. like you.. i felt good in being dark and alone. i felt strength and control in that.

in therapy, i learned that these are the times where i need to do the following:

--Make Healthy Choices ...when it come to food, drinking, whatever you can to make healthy decisons for yourself

--Reach out to friends... talk about it. Often times I wanted to seclude myself. i felt safe there. but i learned that was the illness talking.. and if called people, and talked about my life and got support.. i would feel better.

it does work.

just dont' stop trying to better yourslef and learning. it is all you can ask for ... for a successful life. IMO

Uh. This might be a little controversial/offensive. If ya think about it. For a second. Maybe.

Black = bleak times and darkness? Caucasian = what? Myabe I need a better explanation. To help me. Understand. Your brain. You know.

Rman - I agree with Jenny. I don't think that stewing with dark thoughts is healthy or helpful. Reach out!

Lynne

anne...it's very controversial...it's better that way...perhaps controversy is better than the happy-white, pretty shit...

white = pretty?

Still lost in CA,
~Anne

Oh, btw, there ain't NO contorversy w/o me.

Without the darkness we cannot appreciate the light.

ain't no = double negative

Some people thrive on their dark moments. I'm not crazy about mine. They only make me sad and I've had enough of that. There's a limit, you know? At what point do they please you, Rhombre and at what point do they let you down?

Dark moments please me when they make me feel that I am still alive and filled with emotions...

Dark moments let me down when they make me feel that I am still alive and filled with emotions...

rman- I have those times where I draw that darkness like a blanket. Also creative as hell then. I have learned to temper them better as I ponder a whole lotta stuff. I spend way too much time in my head!

i get that, also wanted to ask you a question, how does one go about getting drum lessons, I think if i can pound the shit out of some drums it might release this anger in a structured way

I can do the darkness with music and just sob

I can give you drum lessons.

how your too far? Seriously I want to take it up, I was in band in my high school years (tuba)LOL and i was in the marching band for 3 years quit all that my senior year just so I could get the hell out of school and graduate.

I must say being in marching band was about some of the best memories I ever had in my life, I stopped playing because I thought, nobody wants a tuba player, and never picked it up again, until my son got into when he was in 8th grade.

Anyway, I miss being in that group of musicians. Now that I'm older, I want to seriously get into it again, and possibly do it as a hobby.

The reason i choose drums is because I think i have very good rhythm, bass player had to, but do drummers read music? or do they just drum?

sorry for the long post.