I'm the worst faker in the world! when things aren't "right" in my world, my whole body reflects it.

I didn't realize how much it showed until last week, my boss asked me if things regarding the mess with my sister had improved...I said "why, yes, her husband finally buried her ashes". He told me he could tell the situation had been "wearing" on me for a long time but noticed I was standing a little taller, shoulders not stooped and my head a bit higher. WOW I never realized how much I "gave away" with my body language. He also told me he could tell when I was angry, as I took longer strides when I was pissed.

So on purpose, I took little baby steps out of his office, looked back over my shoulder and shot him a big toothy smile!

I agree with AJ, I was putting on the front of being happy, but now it isn't a front anymore. When you believe something and portray it, you eventually become it!

I almost have a double me- meaning out in the world, I am this loud, fun person with awesome self confidence and I believe in myself.

Inside my own word, I am dreading what I am feeling, I am alone, and there is no such thing as self confidence. I constantly doubt myself all the time.

So... there ya go- what do you call that? A defense mechanism?

lol

What a surprise it was to see this post on emotions! I post to the Sexual Abuse site quotes every Friday and today I used quotes about emotions. Below is a great one that I think applies well to both groups.

Peace and Blessings....You are all amazing!!

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If I feel depressed I will sing. If I feel sad I will laugh. If I feel ill I will double my labor. If I feel fear I will plunge ahead. If I feel inferior I will wear new garments. If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice. If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come. If I feel incompetent I will think of past success. If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals. Today I will be the master of my emotions. - Og Mandino

I guess I have my times...right now I feel like stbx should be disappeared for the world but I show happiness in my face. It is good to not show emotions for everything but you do need to feel them yourself and act positively, I said, positively towards those emotions.

I have never been good at faking anything. I try but just is not how I am wired I guess.

My emotions tend to show through, no matter how hard I try to hide them. My face can be read.

I am completely transparent. My co-workers take one look at my face in the morning and know if I need a hug or a high five. My eyes will show all my emotions very clearly.

I am sooo not good at faking it.....