i agree and i'm happy to do a sober daytime activity, too.. :) (((hugs)))

I completely lost control of any sense of moderation and earned a DUI.

(((((((LLMT)))))) i know, hon..

During the darkest of times, I consumed more alcohol to escape. Counterproductive...clearly...but, I would have gnawed off my own leg to change the raw bleeding despair I was feeling, if only for a moment. In my case, I should have been on antidepressants, but after trying a myriad of different kinds, and suffering massive seizures, hand tremors, lack of concentration, insomnia (worse than the 4 hours I was already lucky to get), etc.......I said fuck-it and broke out the beer. (I dropped to 89 lbs, so I guess at least the calories did me good).

Best medicine (for me): Time. Hell of a journey.

Thank god I was sober for 8 years before her affair. If I was still drinking during her affair, I would have lost control.

I was barely sane sober....I couldn't imagine being drunk.

I have been eating a lot more then I should. Chocoalte has become my best friend. and it is showing. I guess I need to make exercise my way of dealing with the feelings this new year to get rid of all this chunk I put on.

I have found myself wanting a drink at 10am fairly often. I haven't given in yet, but when I found out my stbx kicked our son off his health care plan (even though he could have kept him on without paying any more money), I did start drinking wine at 11:30am that day.

I try really hard not to over indulge in alcohol, because I'm afraid of what a drunk I would become. It's too easy to drown your sorrows in alcohol, and we have alcoholism in our family. But it does cross my mind very often!

limt - I was drinking like the proverbial fish and I knew it was a really bad thing. I was on the borderline of becoming a functional alcoholic if not there.

This year, I almost died after a surgery and it is amazing what a wake up call that was. I stopped drinking at all, lost 40 lbs (and working on losing more and just started taking better care of myself.

Crawling in a bottle is no solution - a good movie, book or other activity is a better way to ease the pain. I'm going to gett "meet-up" a try as soon as I have more time.

Lynne

I am drinking less and smoking less now. The smoking less is only because I'm not allowed to smoke in my mothers house!!! A real pain in the ass. I'm drinking less because before I left I was drinking WAY TOO MUCH. I'm still drinking everyday, but not like before at all.

I also have noticed that I am more apt to do stupid shit like text he loser, or call the loser, once I reach a certain drunkness....hehehehe so I'm trying to avoid that! It has been 2 FULL DAYS since I last had contact with the fucktard!

"raw bleeding despair I was feeling"

what an apt description of how I felt too

Yeah...the scabs and scars aren't pretty but they are my badge of courage.

I emptied quite a few beer and wine bottles and confess to missing more than a couple of days of work. You definitely need to be wary.

I think about having a drink, or taking a tranquilizer. I don't have any but could probably get some from a friend. I just want the pain to go away.

On the day the wedding was cancelled, after I ran to the bank to keep his parents from getting back the wedding money, I went out with my friends, who were supposed to be bridesmaids at the wedding. I had 3 drinks in 4 hours, which is more than I've had to drink in one night since I was about 25.

The thing that stops me from drinking is that I already have an addictive personality. I'm a compulsive overeater that once weighed nearly 600 pounds. (Not any more, thank God and my surgeon.) So my drug of choice is food, but I'm happy to say that I haven't been binging on food, although I did have too much chocolate last night.

So I'm trying to stay away from self destructive behavior.

you know, dark chocolate is good for ya

My trainer told me about that last spring. I find after I eat one piece my craving is satisfied, and because it doesnt fire off quite as many tastebuds as the lighter varieties, I never felt the desire to eat more than the one piece at a time. Plus its full of antioxidants, and stimulants and if you eat it RIGHT after a workout it helps keep the calorie burn going.

just in case you needed another excuse to eat chocolate.

Fortunately or unfortunately, I don't need an excuse to each chocolate, dark or otherwise. :)

You know, I'm so glad I found this web site. It's helping me cope from moment to moment, which is all I can do right now.