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Truth is, I've been lying not just to you, on DS, but everyone I know in person.
See, the fact is, I haven't been on here too much. I check in now and then. Read some posts, and maybe comment. Even write in my journal most days. The reason for not being on here so much is because, Im slowly dying inside. I have been trying to convince myself that Im ok, and that this will all pass. I am so tired of complaining and whining. So, I pretend its not there.
Im so depressed and faking happiness everyday. I dont want to go back with the stbx, I really dont. I just dont know whats wrong with me. Im actually really ok with not being with him. I dont even miss him, or miss what was or should have been. I hated that life. I know I did the right thing by leaving him. So, why, after all this time do I feel this way?
I dont talk to anyone about this, except for one friend, who lives in TN. She convinced me to open up to you all here on DS.
Im just so tired. Emotionally and physically. I feel like a robot. Im so tired of everything. Honestly, I think about suicide, but KNOW I WOULD NEVER DO IT! I wouldnt want to leave my kids! NEVER! So, whats my options? I dont know and that depresses me. Lots of things depress me. Everything depresses me. I cant shake this funk. I hate it.
Thanks for letting me vent.
See, the fact is, I haven't been on here too much. I check in now and then. Read some posts, and maybe comment. Even write in my journal most days. The reason for not being on here so much is because, Im slowly dying inside. I have been trying to convince myself that Im ok, and that this will all pass. I am so tired of complaining and whining. So, I pretend its not there.
Im so depressed and faking happiness everyday. I dont want to go back with the stbx, I really dont. I just dont know whats wrong with me. Im actually really ok with not being with him. I dont even miss him, or miss what was or should have been. I hated that life. I know I did the right thing by leaving him. So, why, after all this time do I feel this way?
I dont talk to anyone about this, except for one friend, who lives in TN. She convinced me to open up to you all here on DS.
Im just so tired. Emotionally and physically. I feel like a robot. Im so tired of everything. Honestly, I think about suicide, but KNOW I WOULD NEVER DO IT! I wouldnt want to leave my kids! NEVER! So, whats my options? I dont know and that depresses me. Lots of things depress me. Everything depresses me. I cant shake this funk. I hate it.
Thanks for letting me vent.
deleted_user
Definitely sounds like depression. Check with your doctor friend as there is many anti-depression medicines on $4.00 walmart/target list or free assistance. Also most counties have pay based on income for mental health. Don't be hard on thinking you are LYING. How do you answer greeting "How you doing?" We all say ok/ pretty good HA! But did you do have friends, and here is where you can open up your true feelings and get true support as we are experiencing the same feelings. Take care. HUGS
deleted_user
I'm thinking pretending to be happy put so much stress on you that it manifested itself into somthing deeper. You probably tried to be "happy"too soon..started the act for others and tried to believe it yourself until you forgot you were acting. You dont have to be happy.. start with trying to be content. Access what is really going on around you and just be ok with it..work your way up to happiness. I agree that you should check with social services agencies. Before I had insurance I went to a place called "Peoples Choice" I got prescriptions and paid for the pills a few at a time.Also some places have samples and can treat you medically that way. Stop pretending; it's hurting you. If you come in here and want to be a grumpy bitch then be a grumpy bitch you don't owe anyone a fake smile or laugh. As you see you're not the only one who feels this way. Thank you for being so brave as to come in and tell the ugly truth.
deleted_user
oh sweetheart. We have to fake it till we make it. I feel the same way day after day. My heart goes out to you but we will be ok. Call if you want. You are not alone with these feelings.
campyone
Like so many of us I too have felt and do feel like I must fake it, I was doing pretty good, then had a medical thing that knocked my socks off, it sent me into to a tailspin,I feel worse then when we first split, it has nothing to do with X,but it feels like the house just caved in. I am seeing a counsler taking meds.I don't feel any better yet but I hope it works. I am wishing only the best for you. Stay strong. And it's obvious that you have support here, by reaching out today, you took a strart on getting better..
deleted_user
I have been there, and big hugs to you. All I can really say is that it does get better. Just take it one day at a time. :)
patti22
I've felt that way off and on. Today's a good day, yesterday wasn't. Almost all days are good now, but still...
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