I know exactly what youre going thru. My bf broke up with me. And all i want to do is call him and figure something out for us to be together. But he's made it clear that he doesnt want to be with me anymore. This is the most difficult thing I've been thru. And i feel so extremely lost. You are not the only one. And the only thing that'll make us feel better is time.

I'm sorry that you are here. I know exactly how you feel, more than I'd like to. This is very difficult. I wish that I had a pill that we could take that would make this magically go away. All I can do is bring it to God moment to moment. I know that some people don't like to hear that. But I can only speak to my own experience. I want so much for my circumstance to be different. I would love to be with my love. But, it's just not what things are right now. So we cannot allow ourselves to stay stuck in that. I pray daily and ask God for strength to get me through the day. I know that we are told over and over again that it will get better and that can be so hard to believe. But we have to hold on to that and look forward to better days. Some days may be harder than others, but you have to keep moving forward. We cannot allow ourselves to ball up and die. That won't help and it won't change anything. As much as you may want to be alone, try to surround yourself with people who can support you in this hard time. Look into counseling. Take some B12 complex vitamins that can help combat the imbalance your brain is experiencing right now because of your heart ache (look it up). You are not alone. Even in this virtual space, you have those of us who can completely relate. I pray for healing and peace in the name of Jesus!

I'm the type of person that continuously needs to find a solution. He also told me there was no way for us to fix what what broken, which for me-I can't process that. How do you love someone and not try everything in your power to hold on.
Time seems to be a dragged out nightmare.

I haven't reached out to God for years. Being alone and just thinking right now makes me start feeling really anxious. I've just been trying to keep busy and keep my mind off of him. Though I'm sure that's only making healing harder.
I'll grab some of the vitamins today though!

I completely understand feeling like love should've pushed him to go above and beyond to make things work. We feel that way because we know that we would. We may never understand why things unfolded the way they did. Why they couldn't just figure it out and stay. And yes, this is a nightmare! Sometimes in our desperation we find quick fixes that in turn prolong this process. Busy is good, but don't allow it to keep you from really dealing with what's happening. Because then when you're not busy, you will be back at square one. And I think you know that, which is a good thing. So that's why I suggested the counseling to help you sort through this. You want it dealt with, not buried where you run the chance of it re-surfacing again. This process is a challenging one. Hold tight! *Hugs*

I'm sorry you are having to go through this. I agree with thiscantbeit, stay busy but don't let it keep you from dealing with this situation and maybe look into counseling. I know you said you haven't reached out to God in years but maybe this is a good time to re connect. I pray you are able to find peace during this time in your life.

Thank you three! I'll take it day by day and start finding my path towards faith again. Were any of you hesitant on starting counseling?

I completely understand the panic and overwhelming feeling to cling to your ex at any given time. I am in 4th month of divorce, and I am no where near better or helped by no means, but I can tell you that no contact is best. If you keep reaching back, you will never begin to move forward. You will have many bad times , but staying strong and keeping a resolve to not contact. And go do things, the more you stay alone the worse your mind can get you in the wrong frame of mind. When you start stressing or having a mental confrontation with your ex, remember you are creating that, and you can stop it. Good luck, my heart goes out to you.

I was very hesitant when I first reached out for counseling. But honestly, it was the best thing I ever did for myself. It allowed me to talk to someone who didn't have a personal connection to my situation and I was able to get myself the help I needed to get back on track with my life. I wish you the best and I pray you come out of this stronger! I know of this network of Christian counselors. If you want recommendations let me know.

Counseling is the best idea if you can afford it. It can help in SO many areas of your life.

My ex is the person who brought faith back into my life. That can help a lot if you are the type of person who believes in a higher being. That has helped me keep going. You seem like you are moving in the right direction. Good luck to you. One day at a time...