I used to hate, don't know what happened to it, it just sort of melted away over time.

I also work for the government, it's been berry berry good to me.

(((hugs for everyone)))

I hate how I feel..
I hate that I cant change it.
I hate that I am so afraid of the future
I hate that I keep thinking of the past
I hate that all i have worked toward is being destroyed.
I hate that its going to take such a long time to feel better..
I hate that i cant eat or sleep right
I hate that I still wish my stbx would reconsider.
I hate that she wont
I hate that I am trying to hold onto something that is clearly over
I hate that I cant let it go
I hate that she seems to be OK with all of this
I hate that she is indifferent toward me
I hate that i dwell on my in process divorce like every second of every day.
I hate that i still cry in my office at work
I hate that people are tiring of me being so down. my parents, friends,, stbx
I hate that I am not stronger for my kids
I hate myself for all of these things

I hate his parents... they have a lot to do with a lot of th problems we have, not only becuase they taguht him that it was okay to treat women badly, but becuase they treat me that way too...
I hate that i was forced to make a "thank you" card for his parents becuase my husband told me his dad thinks I don't thank him enough.
I hate that everything with his family comes with, not strings, but giant steel reinforced cables attached that I am repeatedly demanded to thank them for.
I hate that every time I say thank you, or do something for them they still complain that I "never" thank them.
I hate that my husband talks to his parents about things and I am always last to find out.
I hate that his dad gave me $100 for holiday and mine had to go right into the bank, but husband got to spend his $100 right away on shoes he wanted. (He says I can spend mine after he makes sure some bills get paid...)
I hate that everything is one-sided even though he makes a big show about asking me if I am "okay" with his decisions.
I hate that I was violently ill all day Christmas Day and I hear him talking on the phone with his parents after we get home about how I wasn't faking it after all because he saw me get sick... what a jerk.
I hate the idea of spending another year with him.
I hate that I have no other option.
I hate being trapped.
I hate that his parents got me 2 cheap crap items for Christmas but spent hundreds on my husband, then my husband confiscates my money from them for "bills".
I hate being stuck in this loop.

I hate that I feel like my life is over.
I hate that I have spent the holidays keeping up a good front while dying inside.
I hate that he just checked out and has left everything to me.
I hate that he is with someone fat while I always struggled to stay in shape.
I hate that he totally ignores me.
I hate that people keep telling me that it will get better.
I hate that I lied to everyone I loved for almost a year because he was telling me he was coming back and I didn't want friends and family to hate him.
I hate that I still worry and love him.
I hate that he withdrew and I coped by drinking too much and that made him withdraw more.
I hate that I can't turn back the clock.
I hate that I feel so stupid.
I hate that he won't tell his family and they think everything is ok and I am avoiding them.
I hate that people feel sorry for me.
I hate that I am stuck packing up his stuff and my family has to help me move it.
I hate that I worry he won't go get it at the storage place and will lose all his belongings.
I hate that I can't let go.
I hate feeling that I don't even know what happened.
I hate that I cry at the drop of a hat.

BUT..............

I love that someone had the brains to start this thread and I found this site.

I hate that woman for tricking me into believing she was clean when she wasn't.
I hate that woman for remarrying me under those lies she told, to me, in the house of God during marriage counseling.
I hate that woman for taking my pride, my manhood, my heart, and stomping it to oblivion with a drug induced smile on her face.
I hate me, what I have become, a hard, heartless excuse for a person.
I hate that woman for messing up the career I worked two jobs to help her get.
I hate that woman for letting the filth and rot of addiction in my family, my home.
I hate that I have this filthy hate in me, and I hate that I struggle to get it out of me.
I hate that I drink to forget the hate, and it only gets worse when I do.
I hate crying.
I hate the way I feel after I cry.
I hate when I decide to never cry again, and cry when I say it.
I hate that I let myself be made to feel this way by someone that I am only a tool to.

I love that someone actually said I had brains to start this thread. LOL

I hate that I love someone who hates me.

rman please listen

this song (the words) remind me of you when i hear it. :(

i am sorry you have love/hate

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Do_zKmWuoJ0

warning.. vulgar language with that song.. especially at the end.

What is the name/artist of that song? My phone does not recognize that link.

kanye west. blame game.

I love this hate thing....I think is lovely

I hate the guilt I feel for not standing up to him, early on in our relationship.

I hate that I had to keep "secrets".

rbm,

I used to hate having to keep secrets too.

It was one of the hardest things I did, "confessing" those secrets to my therapist, but things shifted quickly after I did that.

I hate that I never seen any red flags
I hate that he had me up on a pedestal [harder fall ]
I hate that he cheated on me
I hate he showed no remorse for cheating
I hate that he wanted to come back home after living with the one for 5 week I caught him cheating with.
I hate that he turned very evil towards me when I refused
I hate the police had to get involved
I hate the public humilation he caused with our neighbours
I hate my mother in law for turning on me
I hate him for tearing 2 families apart
I hate him for not having the balls to say he wanted out of the marriage
I hate him for being so selfish
I hate him for cheating with his co- workers wife
I hate the person he has become
I hate after a whole year i can't forget him
i hate i am starting to dream about him
I hate that i cannot say I hate him with all my heart
I hate they are living in the home we shared
I hate he had to get caught before they became a couple
I hate how he degraded me and tried to blame me for his cheating
I hate that I am having trouble moving on
I hate how easy he replaced me
I hate my present life BUT I am going to have to get out of this rut or I will go totally nut's
I hate the fact I better end this post or people will think I am already nut's
EXCELLENT post BTW........

I hate that she is pregnant.
I hate that he did this to me and I am the only one feeling the effects
I hate people who say it will get better
I hate that he kept my child from me on Christmas
I hate that he told me she was pregnant the day before Christmas
I hate the " I never meant to hurt you " lie he keeps telling
I hate that I still love him so much
I hate not being in my house that I paid fir because his bitch ass would not leave
I hate going to sleep and waking up alone
I hate that he is not in any pain
I hate that his new bitch calls me insecure
I hate that I had to explain to my 5 yr old why mommy and daddy don't live together anymore