three months ago my DH left to live in his own house. we have been married for a long time but it has not been happy and there has not been any physical or emotional contact between us for years.
before he left i was crying and asked him if we could try to resolve things but he did not even answer me or make any effort to comfort me and walked away. this was basically how he used to treat me throughout the marriage.
i am now really struggling to understand the way he is now behaving. i am not sure if i am reading more into it than i should.
For example he is buying me presents, he wants me to go with him when he takes the children out. Today we went for something to eat and he bought me my favourite food. I just dont understand what he is playing at... why is he being so nice to me ?
i have humilated myself enough times when he has rejected me so i am not going to ask if he has feelings for me. i am so confused and am lonely and depressed and so vulnerable. i am functioning but it is difficult. i do go out with friends but it is not the same as having a partner there.
i had wished that we could have worked it out, but he made not effort and gave me nothing. i felt invisible most of the time. He also controlled me with his silent treatment. i suppose i should ask myself if i really want him back..
I am from the month of December. I am not a holiday.What am I?
I almost made it through without writing. But tomorrow is my dogs' surgery. I have had a very anxious filled day. And it's so weird with animals because they don't know what's coming. He's just playing with his toys. They really are so innocent. I woke up this morning with the worst anxiety I've had in awhile. Tomorrow should be even worse. Thanks for listening.